angelbear's blog: "journal"

I feel something on the tips of my fingers begin to twist it's way around my hand slowly creeping its way up my arm getting tighter and tighter the harder I try to fight it the harder it squeezes and tightens its grip I try to scream for help but no one hears me the harder I try to scream the more silent I become I feel as thought it has made its way around my throat slowly choking the life out of me it will never stop until it has consumed all of me inch by inch it makes its way towards my heart taking away every last part of me that it can soon there will be nothing left of me no heart no soul

TRUE PAIN

TEARS RUNNING DOWN MY HEART

ALLS YOU SEE IS MY PRETTY FACE AND EYES A GLOW

MY INSIDES TURN AND BLACKEN AS TIME GOES BY

ALLS YOU SEE IS MY EYES SHINING BRIGHT

MY HEART BEGINS TO BREAK AND CRACK SLOWLY

ALLS YOU SEE IS A LIGHT AROUND ME

DARKNESS CONSUMES MY INSIDES NEVER LETTING ME BREATHE

ALLS YOU SEE IS THE BRIGTNESS OF MY SOUL

YOU NEVER KNOW THE TORMENT I GO THROUGH

ALLS YOU SEE IS MY LOVE AND HEART

YOU CAN’T IMAGINE THE PAIN I FEEL

THE TEARS NEVER STOP

MY INSIDES ARE FULL OF SCARS AND PAIN

BUT ALLS YOU SEE IS MY OUTSIDES 

True pain is the fear of loosing your heart and soul and knowing if you do loose that you will never get them back. And true pain is when you revolve your entire being around someone you fall deeply and madly inlove with and knowing that you could loose them within a second. True pain is watching your entire family fall apart and not being able to save them. True pain is feeling your heart and soul break and knowing there isn't a damn thing you can do to fix it or stop it. True pain is wanting to runaway but staying because of the one you are inlove with. True pain is not being able to save your heart and soul from themselves. True pain is watching your star your light slowly dim and then go dark and knowing once that happens they will never be a star or light again. True pain is having thoughts in your head of violence hate and pain and not being able to stop it. True pain is fearing your thoughts coming true and controlling you. But the ultimate true pain is knowing that you could of prevented all of this by speaking up and standing up and because you didn't your world is now going to hell.