~*Back before I got in high school which was probably 03 I found my other half and the most perfect dog ever. My grandma breeds dogs and sells them for a living, she had puppies in her kitchen that she was taking to the flea market, down in South Carolina back on 03. I love dogs & puppies so much, so I instantly fell in love with one of them, she was the prettiest black tan and silver color I'd ever seen in all my life, I chose her to be my dog down there that my grandma would keep that I could see every time I went down there. I taught her how to sit by the time she was 8 weeks old, then I left her. My grandma gave her the AKC registered name: Jordan Princess of Hearts, who was born 04-23-03. Half a year later, Jordan became my dog. She was my Christmas present from my grandma, she had a litter of puppies that came with her also. From there on out, she hardly let me out of her sight and I had never been so happy & close to anything like I was her. She used to go on car rides with me and Callahan, she would even get high with us. I shared food with her, she went for rides with me when I drove, I taught her "Get the kitty" when she came up here, she protected my room. When I made sandwiches she would always get the first slice of bread out of the bag.... Jordan was the greatest dog I ever had/will have. 10-22-08, IS now the official worst day of my life. I was having trouble coping with a friends sudden death, I chose to not come home on 10-21, I stayed with John. I came home this morning almost 7am to "Sam you need to get your dog in the house" I called for her more times then I should've had to and I expected the worst. I got a flashlight and looked in the ditch to see she was there. I thought she was dead. I broke down and cried in the front yard. Came back to the house and assumed she was dead and I didn't know what to do. I went out with her blanket, the phone & a flashlight again to go get her. She looked up at me and wagged her little tail. I was so happy to see her still alive. I sat in the ditch and held on to her and just cried and told her to make it and that I loved her so much. My mom came out we put her on the blanket and brought her into the house. I laid with her and cried for a long time, she still breathed, moved, & wagged her tail but wouldn't close her eyes. I was going to take her to the vet to see if they could do anything to atleast stablize her, she didn't last that long. I was home for 45 mins tops with her alive and then she passed, two final very seperated breaths, & there was no more heart beat of movement, she didn't wag her tail again or try to get up. She looked like she was in so much pain when she passed. I felt bad. I held on with my life and cried harder then I have ever cried in all my life. For two hours after she passed I still held on to her and told her that I wanted her to wake back up, I had to leave to drop the truck off to my dad and I took her and her blanket into my room and laid her on the bed and thats where she stayed until I got back home. I told her before I left to please wake back up, be at the door wagging your tail when I get home. She wasn't she's really gone. I've spent too many hours crying but she meant everything in the world to me. She's the only reason why I ever stayed home, now she's not here, now I don't know what to do. I'm going to make a wall in my room dedicated to her, I'm getting HER pawprint, name, DOB & DOD as a tat on my leg, and eventually will have someone do her face from my favorite pic of her above that. I'm taking her to get cremated, I feel its the best way because I don't think I can watch my dad bury her, atleast this way when I move she can come with me. I've never been so hurt. I've never felt so empty and heartbroken. I will always and forever love her no matter what, I'll never forget her. ~Jordan 04-23-03 to 10-22-08~
I will make a promise, that IF I ever find out who hit my dog and didn't have the decency to stop I WILL fucking kill them, even if it puts me in jail or I can't get my massage license, I would do that for her, even though I know that's something I shouldn't do and if she could tell me right now she wouldn't want me to do it either. If I didn't kill em I'd atleast beat them real damn good. People are ignorant and just rude. I would have stopped. I will forever be broken over this because she was so close to me. Closer then most people realize. Although, I feel that she's in a better place now rather then suffering the pain she was this morning. I <3 you Jordan.
