I stood in your narrow doorway today
and told you everything
as you watched me with those eyes
those eyes in which I could not find a spark
I told you of how he has
i n f e c t e d
my every thought
how he is in every word
rolling off my tounge
how his voice
is behind every sound I make
how I cannot seem to
let
him
go
I wish i'd never met him
I wish this had never started
I wish I didnt feel this way towards him
I cant even move
i'm stuck
because I dont know what he wants from me
he scares me
I dont trust myself around him
but at the same time
I love that freedom
I'm so tired of this
of him
how i feel
and what they are telling me
to do
I told you all of this
and yet all you could say was
"its going to be okay"
you have no idea
do you?
