Sorry I haven't been around in a while. Things are rather on the hectic side here.
Today was my daughters 15th b-day. I'm still in shock over it!! My baby that about turned me inside out is 15!! This is the same baby that had to decide to be late in being born and had to be huge!! This is the same baby that made me realize that there would be no more children!! My world, and my life is 15 today!! It's just amazing to me.
Well, my mom is in the hospital. She's been in ICU for a week now. They intubated her on Monday, and will only keep the tube down her throat for another week, before they have to perform a tracheostomy. They've been trying to wean her off the oxygen, but when they do things go wrong, and they have to cut it back up. This has happened before, and she was able to wean off, but we're just not sure about this time. I've been going back and forth to the hospital every other day for a visit. It's only a 45 minute drive, but the drive back is the hardest. So, I did some reading up on this procedure. It seems to be really complicated. I'm sure it's not once you get used to doing it but, the care of one of these patients is time consuming, and someone has to be with them all of the time. I'd be happy to do it, but I'm not sure I want to be the one to be responsible for that kind of care. I know that sounds just horrible!! I can handle giving her shots, getting her dressed, cleaning her and all of that....but cleaning a hole in her throat, and pulling tubes out and putting them back in I'm not so sure about. But, if she makes it through then I will gladly take the course that they are going to have to teach us, and do the best I can. This isjust one of the things that my family and i will be discussing Thanksgiving at my brothers. Yes, we're still going to get together, but only because they live right by the hospital, and we can go back and forth for the visits. My plan was since everyone had kids, and grandkids, that i was just going to get a hotel near the hospital, and make all of the visits, so they could try and have a normal holiday for the kids. My daughter is going to be at her dads, and I figured my man was going to be with his family or the deer lease. But, my sister in law said we'd just have some food at her house and we could all go to the hospital. Then my man says that he's going to be with me, and see mom too. That's if he doesn't change his mind between now and then. He's good at changing plans at the last minute. And, if he does it on this, then he will get a major ass reaming!!
My oldest sister however is doing her level best to make everyone miserable. She's pissed because I won't give her a key to moms apt. I have always taken care of mom....I have always taken care of things when she was in the hospital. I know what i'm doing by now!! She wanted a key and I told her mothers bag was already packed, the garbage taken out, the air turned off, and I'd go back the next day to clean out her ice box. She got 10 kinds of pissed, went and ranted to mom, that was fighting for her life, trying to breathe, and then she left the hospital. And, she thinks she needs a key??? When she calls to ask how mom is doing, she always asks if mom is dying!! Now, she has stooped so low as to say that I plan on taking everything of moms, and what no one was going to get. First off, she doesn't have a damn key because she will go in and take anything and everything. My mom has nothing of real value except her mothers ring and her mothers mothers ring, which one will go to my sister and the other to her daughter. But, if she gets her hands on both her daughter will never see what mom has always said was hers. Now, she's saying no one but her is going to get any of moms cookbooks but her. I'm not going to fight her over anything. She can have it all as far as I care. But, I will go through the pictures, and take what I want copies of. I don't give a crap if she is the oldest. It's the rest of the family that has helped when mom was ill, and it was the rest of the family that helped me when they could, care for mom. But, I have always been the primary caregiver, because i live in the same town as mom does. So, now she's threatening me!! She's telling my family that she's not done with me yet. She can do or say whatever it is she wants too. But, the fact of the matter is she does not have a key and the rest of us do. I've always had one. The reason the others do is in case I'm working and they need in her apt. to get something for her. When and if mom comes home she can decide if my older sister needs a key or not. But, the bitch isn't getting one from any of us. She told my other sister that if she had a key she'd be able to go to moms and help me clean it, and move furniture around so she can get around better. My sister told her that i had already taken care of it all. And, I did!! Just as I have always done!!
Now, we're just worried that she'll go in mouthing to mom. She did it in the emergency room, why wouldn't she do it in ICU? Everyone knows how I feel. I told them flat out if she went in mouthing I'd have security remove her from the hospital and have it to where she couldn't come back. That may seem harsh...but my mothers recovery is more important than a 50 year old woman whining and not getting her way. The surprising thing is that she has visited mom at all. The last time she never came and saw mom once. She had plans to go out partying and couldn't change them. Well, considering mom was in the hospital that time for over a week, that was one long party!! So...here I am the baby of the family dealing with a vindictive sister that can't wait for mom to die so she can get her things. It's just sad and pathetic. This should be the time that we're pulling together, and all she's doing is ripping us further apart. My other sister has already said that when mom is gone, that she won't have anything to do with our sister again. Now, we just have to wait and see if she's going to show up at my brothers Thanksgiving, and what she has up her sleeve. She's already tried to cause problems with me and my man, because she can't stand for anyone to be happy. She did the same to my sister when she was dating the man that is now her husband. What she needs to realize about my man though....he will not put up with her shit!! And, she really should watch it. If she so chooses to try and make me miserable, it's only going to backfire on her ass.
Anyway...gonna go for now. I want to try and upload some more phots, and rate y'alls!! Have a wonderful holiday, and don't forget me!!! Hugs!!! Darinda
