Yep....been working my ass off!!! I love my job, and I love the people!! My bosses are wonderful. I had a woman work lastnight so I could be off, and she didn't stock, didn't clean, and didn't do paperwork. But, that was fine...I wasn't working today either. I went in to do paperwork, and helped the guys out some that are working tonight. Drank a couple of beers and came home.
Tony is on his way to Austin. He's had something going every weekend since I started working. Well...even before that. But, he took enough time out of his schedule to take my daughter and I to a movie lastnight. I had no clue he was supposed to be going to work that night until we got to the damn mall. And, he wasn't supposed to leave until tonight for Austin. But, of course he left earlier....and I'm sure he took his cousin with him. I'm not stupid. I know he's going there to party. But, he's lying to me about it. I'm not supposed to go to bars without him.......yet he goes once or twice a week for that pool league thing, and now he's going to Austin?? It's fine, because he's not goingto like how things are going to go from now on. I'm sick of the shit. I have a truck I'm usuing now, until my mustang is fixed. I sold it after it got fixed, and the guy traded it in to a mutual friend for a truck. The friend knew how much I loved my old car and has now bought another car, to use parts from to fix my car, and GIVE it back to me. I went earlier to look at the car he bought and it's in perfect condition. So, we'll see what's going ot happen. He just told me he was going to fix my old car and give it a paint job and give it back to me. I can't let him just give it back to me....I'll pay him back come hell or high water. But, I have the truck until he's finished with my car. I don't sit at home unless I want too now. And, I have the money to do what i want now. Which leads me to my next point.....my old apartment is becoming available soon. I loved that apt. And, he said he'd call when they were finished with the new flooring to let me come and look at it and I'd have first call. So, I'm about to have my own place again!!! A vehicle, my own place, a job. My boyfriend thinks it's until the house he's having built is ready....that's not the case. I'm tired of waiting on him. I was supposed to have had a vehicle a while back. But, he always has excuses. I was supposed to move into his house now a while back....always excuses. I'm tired of waiting and I'm tired of excuses. So, I'm making my own plans. If it works out with him....fine....if not fine. It's not like I can depend on him, nor have I. I depend on my own damn self. It just so happens I have friends that love me and that I CAN depend on. And, they know they can depend on me. It's a good thing. I already have my bosses trailer lined up to move me when the time comes too.
Oh and yea!!!! I filed my divorce papers Friday!!!! Now, I have to have that asshole sign a waiver, and I'll be divorced close to our anniversary in April!!! Single again!!!!
So, as you can see.....I don't need a man that says one thing and does another all of the fucking time. I'm doing well and will continue too, now that I'm able to work again.
Also......the guy that does our games and such came in the other day and just stayed until late that night. My boyfriend was in and asked who he was and why he kept staring so much. Then the next day my bosses got me talking about how he just stayed and stayed and that he'd tipped me a good amount. It;s true. Then the secretary said he had a crush on me and that was why he stayed. I finally told them that we had dated in high school, and I had gone out there one day and he was there and we talked and he told me that he still loved me and always had. I told him that maybe he'd come along a little too late the second time around. Well, I'm not a fool!!! He kept hanging around and talking and I'd look up to see if anyone needed a beer and he'd be watching me. He's a nice guy, but lets face it....that was high school, and I personally haven't seen a change in him since high school. He's still just a boy in my eyes. Personally I have no desire to date any man i have met. I thought i had what i wanted......I think I may have been mistaken. My bf actually told me the other night that i was 95% the way he wanted me. All that was left was for me to quit smoking and drinking. I told him that he should find someone else, that I had already given up enough for him. Finally one Saturday night I was able to close up early and wanted to go and see a band that was playing in another bar. But, he had to get up early to help his mom and dad move some stuff. I'm off tonight and another good band was playing, and he left for Austin early. I'm just tired of this shit!!! We only go out when he wants to go out, and we leave when he wants to leave. Basically I have to pitch a damn fit in order to ever get to go and do anything.
So, lastnight since my daughter was here he took us to the mall to a movie. I hate going to the movies!!! People talk all the way through it or act stupid. Such as lastnight. My daughter wanted to go into stores he didn't want to go into, and knowing we had to leave right after the movie so he could go back to "work" he had to go look for a certain cd. Took up all of the time, and my daughter wanted to go back to one more store to look at lip rings and he told her she could get one. That would be fine but I had already told her that i was trying to keep as much money as possible for the deposit on my apt., the rent , and deposit on electricity. So, she picked out her lip ring, and I went to pay for it...he tried, but i wouldn't let him. I do not want him coming back and saying well I bought this for your daughter.....no thanks been there and done that shit!!!! I'll just do it myself, or it won't get done at all. Anyway....nuff of that shit!!!
You know how you always see in the movies how people spill their guts to a bartender??? Well, I kind of had that happen to me the other night. I know the guy but not that well....and I know who he's dating somewhat. My mistake....I asked if he was taking her to do something special for valentines. Then he stayed for a while while we talked about it all. She was supposed to be in any minute, then she called and from his end of the conversation, I realized she wasn't. We talked a little about that, and I told him that I knew it was no fun to have plans and have them cancelled at the last minute, and for the other person to have no time for you. I think we both decided that night that we were fighting a losing battle. He and I both have in common that we both left our spouses and started dating another right away. Now, he's figuring that maybe he'd be better off without that person. It's been about a year for him, just like me. I don't know what it is.....
All, I know, is I don't need a man that has to make time for me. I let mine know that, so he started making more time for me and has rubbed it in every step of the way. I don't need that! I think a lot of the problem is....his cousin that is single moved down here, and wants to go out all of the time, and wants my man to go. I can damn sure guarantee you, that's what he's doing when I'm off....going out with that scum bag. He's going to feel mighty funny, when I walk into the same bar one night that he's in when he's told me that he has to work. And, Monday night it's on!! If I can close the bar down early I damn sure will. He's going to be playing a pool tournament against my ex. My ex has been mouthing something bad. But niether will be expecting me. I just want to see if what i'm hearing is true or not. I've already talked to the other woman whose name has been brought up. I want to see for myself. I've already whipped my exes ass once. But, I really want my divorce papers signed before i do it again.
I guess you could just say that I'm sick of it all. I think maybe, just maybe, it's time to start over COMPLETELY. A divorce, a new place to live, my own vehicle. Maybe it's time to just be alone again for a while. I can find myself again, and be the person that is me. As it stands now, I have no damn clue where I am with myself. I have tried to please someone else for so long, that I have forgotten who I was. That can never be a good thing.
And, a little bit ago the boyfriend called telling me he missed me and how much he loved me, and how pretty and sexy he thought i was. I told him it sounded like he was trying to butter me up for something, or that he planned on doing something wrong. He just said can't I compliment you. Well, yes he could....but it always follows with something expensive he's bought for himself. Plus....he was supposed to meet his "new boss" Monday, now he's saying it's tomorrow. I'm really beginning to think that he lies so much that he can't keep up with all of them. But, this is the bitch that damn sure can!!!
I can only imagine how it's going to go when I have my own place. He's going to be one hot mother fucker when he can't get hold of me then. Maybe he should know how it feels to try and call and get voicemail all fucking night long. It's always...well I don't have service, or I didn't hear the phone ring. I think it's time to do like I've done the rest. Tell them I'm working, and go and check things out. Supposedly he's been staying with his parents because his house got flooded and it's still not finished. He told me at the time it was supposed to be getting finished up to not get an apt. that the house was almost finished and it would be ready for me to move in. It was always two weeks. Well, I quit asking....it's been months now. So, all of a sudden he tells me I need to get my divorce. So, I surprise that ass and tell him i filed and he was just floored. Now, we'll see what he's going say. What ya want to bet it's going to be well lets wait until it's final. And....when i went shopping for Valentines.....I found 2 receipts. Now, i know what i got wasn't $233.00. He had two for jewelry and I got one. Don't think I'm stupid. I'm just waiting to bust his ass, to let the other woman know. Do not fuck with me.....been there and done that, and managed to make their lives a living fucking nightmare before I was done. I will do the same again!! And, he really needs to remember everything he's told me that can come back to haunt him.
Hell....going to listen to music now.....need a break!!!
