OK , where do i start that i have lost 15 pounds, that my eyes are sunken or that my family hasnt seen me in two weeks. That the moment i walk away im wondering if the next good mummm has come out. People im totally addicted. I have turned into a Fubar fanatic. I keep telling myself thats it is just a stage and it will wear off. Yet yesterday at the store my mind kept wondering did I make sure I returned all the love shown me.
My fellow roomies in the chat room that I attend have threatend to do an intervention; luckily for me they are slowing getting pulled in themseleves. Yes i shamefully admit to telling them all about the FU with the hope that like me they will get addicted. I know you think that is shallow, but you must realize its the FU not me. Im not responsibe for my spordic behavior.
The good part is I recognized i have a problem. So i asked the fubar staff for help, they directed to the very first fubar annon. meeting, where i met my sponsor and I am attempting to turn my life around. Like my sponsor say one Fuday at a time , or as I say one mumm at a time. Yes so far i have relasped daily but theres hope my sponsor actually has 5 hours clean so if he can do it I know I can. So this is my ongoing fight ppl. The good thing is when i relapse the only pain i recieve is lots of new friends and alot of fun. So if you are addicted as i am take it a Fuday at a time and plzzzz leave some white chips for me lmaoooooooooooooooooo.
