loopyass's blog: "Isnt it amazing"

Lets start here first, whats the big rush in life. Every where I look it seems to me people are rushing. Rushing to get to work, school, to feed the kids, to grow up, to be smarter or stronger rsuh rush rush. Now its no wonder that you get caught up in this frenzy of rush. I mean if u have ever ran a race, you know as the pack picks up speed so will you. It takes great discipline and vigilance to stay at your own pace. So it seems to be in life. We want faster puters, quicker microwaves, ready to eat dinners, ready made realtionships, rush , rush rush. So when I came here on Fubar, the same thing occured. I mean at first I was just curious to see what it was all about. Then I learned a few new tricks, which of course mad me smile. Yet after awhile, I got caught up with advancing, making the new level. Well, lately Ive had to rethink my actions. See I have ran into one or two ppl on here that i like. I realize now that while Im playing the fubar game of levels and points. Dont get me wrong here I find it quite fun. At the sametime, it makes me wonder am I rushing so much for levels and points that Im actually missing out on the experience. Heres a chance to meet all types of interesting ppl. The chance to fill my life with more positivity and creativeness, and laughter. The essentials for my peace and joy in life. So now that Im thinking this I realize hey dummy, why not smell the roses. Its that simple saying, its not the destination but the trip thats important. So, I think I'll slow down for just a minute, and sit back and just enjoy this ride. Never know what I'll encounter on this trip. So if you see me leave my me a message or shout at me and speak. Hey maybe we can walk together for a little while. ok later peeps.

This is probably not going to be taken well at all but my desire and wish is that maybe just maybe it might touch someone. Recently , I have been exposed to blatant racism, by choice that is, on several levels. So let me first take responsibilty for that. By that I mean I chose to continue to go to this specfic chat rm, I chose to not use the ignore button. These are my choices. Which may not be the smartest considering what it is doing to my spirit. I mentioned the above to let you know that I realize I have these choices. Let me add this, its justifaction i know but i feel it needs to be said. I frequent this room because I have met and befriended with several of the regulars. I am proud to say that I consider them my friends. Initially, this blog was going to deal with racism, hmmmmm, but often we find ourselves driven to speak out on a deeper levels. So even ask I type my mind is trying to find agreement with my heart. Honesty............ courage, integrity hmmmm. Im sorry but thinking of these things often make u realize, or...... either ask yourself questions. My question is this, to you and to myself. Is there anything in life worth standing up for. Now for this next part, for the purpose of effectiveness will be my own personal ohhh what shall we call it (insight, observation, judgement) you can decide. I know Im rattling here trying to process my thoughts. Just hang on. Ok heres the jist of it, lately I find myself being offended daily by my own cowardice and others. There is not a day that goes by that I dont run across blantent cruelty. Often this is masked in humor, or sarcism but the effects are still the same. See i believe that the human condition is like this big ocean we constantly fill. Each and everyone of us either adds a teaspoon, some cups, buckets it doesnt matter. Some of us add nothing we just sit by and watch what others put into it. Whats amazing though is this is our only water supply. No Im not speaking literally now. You see every remark made, every good deed, kind gesture is a drop in this ocean. Yet, this is not my concern today. No! My concern today is for myself. My spititual growth, my idenity, my selfworth to myself and society. See in this ocean of humanity, its not that people pour toxins into our water supply. Its that I watch them quietly and silently. Ohhhhhhhh, yes i can justify and rationalize my pacifity. Actually I have become somewhat of an artist at this particular craft. Here is my delimina, my wake up call, enlightment, what ever. How can I expect my sons to become men if I cant find the guts to make a stand. How can I expect people to respect me or my ideas when I cant fathom the thought that this is worth dying for, worth fighting for. Everyday I make choices, will I take a stand or will I sit by quietly and watch. I find myself watching the history channel alot more these days. Looking at mans mistakes, achievements, its astonsing and truly magnificant. Yet as I watch the history of mankind it always amazes me the level of cruelty and selfiness that exist within us. Futher more that the average person will turn a blind eye to the most horrendous things imaginable. I mean Im sitting home going what the friggin hell were these people thinking about, thats ridiculous. Then it hits me, no there just like me..... silent. Maybe the most loathsome crime of all is Inaction, thats how it occurs. Do not get me wrong now. I am not going to turn into Mr. Social Correct Warrior. Though it would not hurt if I chose that path. Keeping with honesty though I'll admit Im entirely to selfish to have the fortitude for that particular task. I can though make a effort to be vigilante about my importance to the overall condition of the human race. Something as simple as writing this rambling incoherent blog as I am doing now. Its just a drop in that ocean that I previously mentioned. So at least today, I can say I attempted to add something clean and positive to society. Even if no one reads this, the effect has already taken place. To whom you might ask? Well to the most important person that needed to hear this, myself.

Recently , me and a friend were chatting. As sometimes happen when you are talking or chatting with someone the conversation decides to take a life of it own. In these instances, I find myself amazed at where these conversations lead. So im sitting contemplating this in the morning, and i realize what is nagging me. Not the fact that this happened, but why. Oh it's easy to think well you said you all were friends. Of course that's true too. Or that eventually, when you know someone these things happens, hmmmmmmm, well that one ill ponder over. What i realized was this theres talking and theres communicating. Like every other thing in life you get what you put into it. See what happened is that two people who liked each other and who felt good vibes from each other did something amazing. What you ask? They took a chance! Simple as that, they risked bieng vunerable. Amazing isnt it. Such a little thing to do but one we rarely do with each other, open up. I know by now you are either totally bored, or reasonably curious about the conversation. Well does it really matter the specifics, no. What this blog is about is how we have the power to have amazing things come about in our lives. I'm not sure if you are like me, but theres nothing more amazing when two ppl connect. When they say to you with thier honesty, hey look you are specail enough to walk with me here. Im trusting you not to judge me, or condone me but just to listen and talk with me. Something so simple, but so totally amazing, Ok , so now u probably are saying why the hell did he write this. Simple, thats the answer. Simple, see things that are simple pass us by so often in life because we overlook them. I wrote this blog today to tell u, if u want something amazing to happen to you today, do this. Connect with someone, take a chance an let them wonder in the corridors of your doubts , dreams, beliefs, secrets. All it takes is trust and courage, if you give it most times it will be returned. Amazing!