Just did not feel like it! FUCK IT! FUCK IT! I am so sick of feeling this way. WHY DOES IT HAVE TO BE LIKE THIS ALL THE TIME? I have tried to live a life of being there for others, and I have not been there for me. I have no one there for me. I am sick of being rejected, and left alone. My heart has been broken for the last time. I will never let anyone get close. EVER! I seriously just wish I could fall asleep tonite, and not wake up. The pain I feel has just brought me to my knee's. I feel unworthy of ever having someone love me. Like I don't deserve it. This last person made me feel this way. Everyone tells me ohh they love me, but then why do you fucken leave? I am so loyal and so good to my people. Somehow, someway they fucken betray me or hurt me way to much. I just wish I could have someone be real with me for once. NO BULLSHIT!~NFA
