life's little curve balls
Things are so strange now so much is going on Today my aunt called us to let us know one my relatives committed suicide this week my mother has lost her mind (dementia) I have no job and someone I love and still have deep feelings for his birthday is monday I can't keep my life in order i did not fill my meds till today my emotions are all over the place. I can't deal with this any more alone. dating and sex don't fill this void very long.
This man I care for stopped seeing me because he wanted this 25 yr old child he lied and said he was seeing other women too. That was a lie. He was only seeing her but he wanted too much too soon and she ended it. it was karma he hurt me and he got it back. i feel bad in a way but i laughed and felt he deserved it.
I hurt for him I still care for him miss him want to talk to him take him in my arms .
I can't its wrong It pains me
