I feel anger in me far beyond any I have felt before!
Why must I carry this so? Why can’t I just write my poetry without hurting people why must I constantly watch my hand for fear of hurting those I love?
I am sitting here drowning myself in a bottle of Jim beam and now I am almost finished it and still my anger is so strong that I am yet to actually get drunk! I was happy... I really was! After a week of feeling like half myself I was actually happy!!!! FUCK!!! I am not now.... and this just hurts me! You know that! I’m writing this now beacos if I wait I will never write this! ... Something you should all know!! And I mean YOU ALL SHOULD KNOW! I don’t ever mean I LOVE YOU! The only person I mean that to is Suzan that’s why I try not to say it! I will say lurv or ...no that’s it..... luv just doesn’t sound right ether!..... I see I am bad and I have been shown that as well!
I’m almost out of coke so I’m taking double shots and half the coke!....... my JB is really feeling good now!....I’m wanting to cry!... but I wont! No... not now! No tears from my eyes! I’m hurt! I wrote what I did out of poetry! She knows that! Fuck!... gods will burn for this but I only love one fucking person and she should fucking know this!!!! Gods! This other person fucking knows that I only love one person!.....oh and I don’t care if this is confusing I really could not fucking care one fucking bit! You don’t understand this shit go fuck your self and just leave me alone and nener nener! Lmfao!!!!!
Ok I just want to pray for a sec ok?.....”please mistress of darkness kill all emo’s... please let them all rot in you 6 cold hells!” ok thanks ..... just wanted to do that!.....
Fuck this shit is really strong now! Lmfao.... I’m seeing double.... weeeeeeeee speaking of wee brb I need to drain the lizard.... ^_^
Ok I’m back now! Wow... that was a lot! Lmfao!
Marines fucking rule man!!!!!!!!
Burritos!!!!!!!!!! Fucking hell they taste good....
Lol...think I under cooked the onions.....ah well! Still taste good though!... please don’t even ask where I got the burrito from! -_- regardless it tastes good! Nice and spicy!.....
Ok I should stop now but fuck am I pissed!.... I’m so fucking finishing this 700ml bottle of Jim beam!!! Lol...... ok fuck you all later! Lol...... just joking.... talk soon!
