TheAmbassadorOfRomanceInVenus's blog: "Thoughts"

Meeting for the first time, after a long relationship in cyberspace Meeting Harry for the first time, after a long relationship in cyberspace, was a real shocker! Oh he was ruggedly good-looking, shoulder length light brown /gray hair ,hazel eyes nice ones;-)slightly paunchy, but didn't detract from the mostly hard 5'11 rest of him. What turned me off, was the first words out of his mouth when he came into the house and the door closed. He quickly grabbed me to him and said "I knew I'd feel like this, we've waited so long, lets not waste time, I know you want me as much as I want you." I pushed him back "Wait just a minute, that's a helluva way to start out with me Harry. When did I give the impression that I would go for this kind of behavior." He backed off saying " Sorry, I thought you had that look about you,, and your sexy voice always gets to me, you know that." "Apology accepted , but I'm curious did you really expect I'd go right into the bedroom with you ?" " I thought if you felt the same urge , we'd get the first time jitters over with, get satisfied then we could relax with each other.I was hasty ,but you should take it as a compliment, you are very lovely, and you turn me on." I thought of how I looked, 5'4 too plump, but not bad,shoulder length wavy black hair, dark brown eyes, yes I've been called exotic, sexy, though now I'm past middle-age, and no longer feel it. I said: "Harry,I'll take it as a compliment it did no harm. However, that's not the way to greet someone for the first time, not in my book. Besides, you don't know that I want you that way, we've never spoken on that subject at length. Just a few glib remarks" "Liddy, I always thought it was understood. You can't honestly say I didn't let you know my feelings, and you seemed to like them." " I'm not saying that , but in all of our communication I don't ever remember agreeing even subtly to have sex . Also, you know I'm a romantic, what kind of feelings do you think you inspired in me with that opening. Don't you at least want to woo me a little first?" By now we were seated in the living room on the sofa, Harry keeping his distance. He knew he had goofed, I gave him credit for that much. " I see what you mean Lid, but hey , we aren't strangers, and you know how I feel about you. Still I didn't act right, of course I want to romance you. Would I have come a thousand miles just to say hello?" We talked for about an hour. Then I showed Harry where he would sleep and he put his things away, while I made dinner. We had settled our differnces with a kiss. It was a bit too harsh with Harry showing me how horny he was, using his tongue wildly. Yet I understood he was feeling the pressure of his desire for me so I didn't complain much. My problem, I wasn't sure how I felt about Harry. He did turn me on , but not in the way another guy did. The one I really wanted but couldn't have. I had to get over him, and try to get excited about Harry. He was a good man, and for the past several years we had come to know almost everything about each other. Now that we finally have met in person, I think it will be okay if I just try to concentrate on him without comparing him to the one I can't have. Life is so rotten sometimes. I couldn't help think if Harry had been the other one as soon as he walked in the door I would have gone to bed with him. That's why I didn't get too upset with Harry, I had a guilty concience. Just as I thought that, he came up behind me at the sink and put his arms around me, his right hand felt my breast and I felt him harden against me, as he kissed my neck. I said "Move a minute" he groaned in disappointment. I went to the stove and shut the burners off. Then I took Harry by the hand and led him to the bedroom. He said " Now your talking babe,as he started to undress me." That was the beginning of our affair, which is still in progress after two years, and there is no sign that it will end any time soon.We seem to be what the other needs in many ways, but in the bedroom , oh my he is a master, and totally erased all thoughts of that other one out of my mind completely!