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What are you waiting for?
As I sit here tonight, wondering, thinking, hoping, I wonder if things will change. As it was once told to me, in order to be happy sometimes, you have to let things go. I've let go of just about everything, well almost everything. There's times when I still feel like holding onto a thought that crosses my mind, or a feeling that you get, like the butterflies when you talk to that special someone, or that chill that you feel in the midnight air on an early fall evening. Perhaps it's that feeling of a crush, someone that you would love to have, but convencing them of that is harder then anything else. I have been here for years, since lost cherry, I have seen 100's of females, all of them beautiful in some way or another......Well I think I've found one that's beautiful all the way around. I've known her for a while, but everytime I talk to her she's got someone, well I want to be that someone that she has. She's awesome from what I've gathered just by talking to her, she seems a lot like me, and the values, and morals I have, this day and age, that's getting harder and harder to find. Now I'm not a good looking guy, or even a decent looking guy, I'm just a big guy, much like a bear. I don't know if she'd like that or not, but I would like for her to. This girl......she could mean the world to me, she'd be way too good for me, but I'd do my very best to treat her like a princess, because she deserves that. I don't know if I can, but I'm willing to try.
With her, I'd give anything to kiss her soft sweet lips, to play in her blonde hair, to look deeply into her beautiful blue eyes and tell her how I feel. She'd be my pride and joy, she'd be everything I've wanted, and looked for, she'd be all that I could ask for. I know women can be hard to handle, but with her....I feel it'd be different. Ya know, you just have these feelings at times, sometimes they are right, others they are wrong, but you have to try it to make it work. With her, I don't see much trying on either parts, because we'd both be trying, and not having to do that much. If things with her got serious enough, then yes I'd move to be with her, I think she'd be able to handle my life and job fairly well. I think she'd be a great person to have in my son's life. Ya know when picking a mate, ot anyone else to date for that matter, you always have to put your kid's needs first, and make sure this person would be a good fit for him, and not only you. I believe that it'd work both ways in this situation. I feel we could take on life together, and could be really happy with each other. I believe I could see myself marrying her, and staying with her, which is also hard in this day and age. But again, I'd risk the feeling of a broken heart for her, just to see if it worked. Yeah she's pretty special if you couldn't tell. I believe our relationship would be Jason Aldean's song 'Big Green Tractor'. That's perfect, at least it'd be for me....Perhaps if she reads this, she'll know who she is, maybe not, but what I say is true, and I'd give her everything I could. I just hope she'd realize that there's a guy out here that's willing to do whatever it'd take to be hers, and would treat her well. I would love nothing more then to be able to call her mine, perhaps it will happen one day....,,
