So I am going to my parents this weekend. I havent seen them since Jan. but that is to kinda cool waters prior to telling them what may go on Tues. I have always been the type to keep things to me and kinda keep to myself about personal health matters. they know my diabetes is bad and i told them im a candidate for the pump... but i didnt actually tell them that tues he might just give it to me. with how my sugars run high as they do, there is a high possibility of the issue of me getting sick (shock) and i didnt really want to worry them with it. They have far more worries than that to have on their mind. I have some really good friends who say its going to be ok. but honestly im scared out of my damn mind. more so the last few days. like shakey panicing,the I cant breathe kinda butterfly in my stomach crap. Not really wanting to eat or hungry and i attribute that to the fear that has been sinking in . yes it will change me for the better, and i will be able to regain alot of things back. but is there a sacrifice for this? is stopping the 5-8 shots a day for the pleasure of a device ... does it come with any recourses. Its a good thing so Im convinced but I still cant help but wonder about the cons. what happens if something goes wrong?.... well anyways I am packing and getting things ready. its going to be a relaxing weekend with no issues just a time to kinda mellow. talk to you all when i get back
