DoctorJERMx's blog: "this is my brain on...line."

with a girl.

met...connected...continued.

then...when who i was online and in real life was realized being for real haha...she let me know.

i was a good idea...a nice novelty.

her words i believed to be true about not caring that i wasnt some professional and status and wealth didnt mean a thing to her.

then...oh lordy.

after a bit i reacted to her "concern" about my emotional intensity and her asking me to tone it down.

because i give a shit?

i dont beat women?

i dont tell them what to do?

treating women as equals is a concern?

no...i realized by what she said that in the long run i was going to get a free ride from being with her.

haha.

and im not at the same level as her...when she herself doesnt have a thing happening but professing she has it together.

and im wrong because i loved her and i was hurt by being told to change especially by a person who said they would never try to change me.

wanting me for me and thats it.

i didnt make it up.

its not some twisted reality that im following.

i listen...i pay attention...i give attention...i care...i react to judgements....

that is what broke the camel's back...she didnt give 2 shits and im sure wont because she wont look in the mirror and realize she isnt what she says she is.

i am jerm..in public even haha.

im broke yes,but also im an artist, im a promoter of art, im a singer, a doorman, and regardless of listing off what i do...im me.

without the chains of profiling and status quo keeping me down.

i know there are real humans on fubar and online.

i dont take it over the top though.

if i do meet someone in person from first talking online...thats a plus.

but  the reality of hypocritical women is huge.

they want a boyfriend, a dad, a hard on, control, love and affection too haha.

no matter how attractive some women seem theyre just as bad as the one liner guys who try to pick up women with having a "good" job and telling them theyre sooo hot

women need to realize that all guys arent your ex or your meal ticket.

just a real guy with problems and worthy attributes.

not perfect but not a monster either.

so fcuk off to all the fake ass "enlightened" females.

i can see right through em...just like some women can see right through a "player"