Dont Judge A Book By Its Cover You Never...'s blog: "Friends"

Just to let you that.... You are the first thing I think about when I wake You are the last thing I think about before I fall to sleep. I find my self looking up to the stars and wondering if you are looking at them also. I dream of waking next to you I dream of going to sleep next to you I find myself wanting to be near you, to touch, to see your smile, to hear your laugh. I miss you when we don't talk. It is like something is missing. You can say the simplest of things to make me smile and make me think. So I just wanted you to know that you are very special to me and even though we might not talk every day I'm still here thinking and dreaming of you.

Ok...For those of you that really know me you know what I do for a living. I'm a 911 dispatcher. Well, I got off work this morning at 6am. I was working from 6am to 6 pm. Then over a year ago I wanted to go to nights. I work from 6pm to 6am. Yes I work 12 hour shifts. But, I only work 3 days one week and 4 days the next. YEAH!!!!! Anywyas, I was laying on my couch just dozing off today when my phones rings. It is my boss..I'm half asleep. She is like we are changing the shifts around. Do you want to go back to days? I tell her NO..I love being on nights. So, I'm losing my partner. We work very well together. I'm not happy about this. My current partner and I have worked together for over a year now. We have a nice pattern. My officers know they can do there jobs and know that we have there backs. I'm not looking forward to this at all. I know I have to be positive. However, I know things aren't going to be very good at work. My new partner won't like coming to nights. It will make my shifts very rough. So, yes I'm counting you my friends to keep the smiles coming. Take care and thanks for being there for me. Hugs D~

Just a note to let you know that I'm taking a break from here. I will check my messages and things from time to time. I will respond but, not as often as I have in the past. I have met some really special people on here and you know who you are. But, once again I have been hurt. Not on purpose but, still I have been hurt. When will people realize that words and actions have meaning. All I have ever asked is to be loved for who I am. My heart is very big and I have a great deal of love to give. However, it is easier to say things, to someone like me to get what you want. I wish people would put other people first and not think just about themselves. I wish people would grow up and not play head games with people. I wish people wouldn't take advantage of others emotions. That makes it very hard for people to trust someone else. Let alone themselves. My wish for all of you is to realize what you have when you have and not let it get away. For when its gone it is to late to get it back. You never know what it is lost til it is gone. Like I said I have met some very special people on here and you know I will be touch with you. Please don't be upset with me. I truely hope my real friends won't forget about me. But, for once in my life..I'm thinking of ME. I don't know when I will be back. So to let you all know I really care about you from the bottom of my heart. I will miss you very much. Please take care and remember that I will be back. Please Don't Forget Me..... Hugs and Kisses..... Bye

Life has soooooooo many ways in surprising you. You can join one of these chat sites and meet some really nice people. You have alot of the same interests. You may find some people that are just after friend counts and points. But, then again you can find your best friend. Someone that you can talk to for hours and never get bored. Then again you make some really good friendship that will last a life time. You may meet in person or it will all be by email, IM, or phone calls. But, you have to remember that when you meet someone and you really connect. These are the ones you hold close to your heart. You can be open and honest and they won't judge you. You can have your differences but, know that deep down in your heart you still love them and they love you. I will admit that I have been lucky enough to find a few really nice and true friendships on here. I truely care for you and you all know who you are... With much love, Hugs

Have you ever stopped to think about what makes people do the things they do? You make friends and talk and talk. You share some of your most inner most thoughts with people. Then all of a sudden they stop talking to you. You sit and wonder what did I do? You ask about there day,how they are. You make sure to make it a converstation between two people not just one. But, again they just stop talking to you. We all know that some people come into our lives for one reason or another. Some stay and will always be there and some will leave. You have the ones that will lend a shoulder or a helping hand and of course there are the ones that only want to take from the friendship. You have people that leave comments on your page, comments on your pictures, emails, or even shouts. But, then all of a sudden they stop. They could have given you very special comments and you took them to heart. You really believed what they were saying. But, all along they were just words to them. They never really had any meaning to the one they sent them to or even from who sent the comment. So I just sit here and wonder......... Who has been really honest? Who is just out there to play games? I would really like to know the truth....

I really wish people would say what they mean and mean what they say. Yes there are some people out there they get enjoyment out of hurting other people. They say things to them that make them dream, wish, want, and believe that they can have. You have some people that have a very big heart and take things that are said to them to heart. They believe in you and what you say. Then you come to find out that they didn't mean any of it. We all come on here looking to make friends. Some people are wanting more than friendship. Some are even lucky enough to find it. However, when you talk someone for a period of time and then all of a sudden stop talking to them. They believe they have done something wrong. All along they thought you might have a very nice friendship developing and all along they were wrong. For some reason or another you have just stopped talking to them. Instead of being honest you let them believe they have done something. So just think about it the next time you have a conversation with someone. Be careful with your words. Please say what you mean and mean what you say.

All I want to know is do you know who your true friends are? You meet people that say they will be there for you always and when you need them they are gone. You meet people that say you matter to them. You meet people that are there for you for awhile then they just leave. You meet people that say one thing to you and something else behind your back. Those people aren't your friends. True Friends are people that call you just to say hi. True Friends are people that stop by when you are sick. Ture Friends are people that are there to dry your tears. Ture Friends are people that get upset when you get hurt. Ture Friends are always there when they say they will be. True Friends accept you as you are. True Friends are honest when you ask a question. So, do you know where you stand with your friends? Are you really a True Friend?

I thought I had made a friend nothing more nothing less a friend. Someone I could talk to. I guess I was wrong. Things happen for some reason or another but, they do happen. It just makes you sit back and wonder why? I guess if people can't accept us for who we are we aren't missing out on anything. You can laugh, joke, cry, smile, make them realize that you are who you say you are. Sometimes that is just not enough!!!!!!!!!!! So to my friends let me say it is a pleasure knowing each and everyone of you. You have brought some sunshine in my life one way or another.There are those out there that have been there for me. I hope you know how special you are. I hope I have done the same for you my friends.

I'm sorry, If I'm not skinny enough for you to see my ribs. I'm sorry, If I'm not pretty enough to be "your girl". I'm sorry, If I'm not tan enough for you. I'm sorry, If I'm not a playboy model so I can't act like a porn star for you. I'm sorry, If I don't have a dream body that turns you on. I'm sorry. I'm sorry, If I'm not tall enough. I'm sorry, If my hair is not long enough. IM SORRY! But most of all... I'm sorry that most guys can't accept a girl for who they really are. If you're a girl and you agree with this, repost as "I'm sorry". If you're one of the few GUYS with enough balls to repost, and you would never make your girl feel this way, repost as "I love you just the way you are