Dont Judge A Book By Its Cover You Never...'s blog: "Are you out there?"

You walk outside one spring nite. The air is cool, the sky is filled with a million of stars, and all is quiet around you. You look up into the sky and see the stars. Little ones, big ones, dull ones, and bright ones all unique in there own way. The wind kicks up and sends a chill up your spin. At that very moment you know that that someone special who you have in your heart is thinking about you. Maybe he is looking up at the same stars as you right now. You close your eyes and start to dream that he is standing beside you. Keeping you close and not letting go of you. You understand each other without any words being said. You know that when you are together nothing is impossile. As you stand there and you can feel nothing but the two of you. A smile comes across your face because at that moment you realize you have found your Best Friend. You open your eyes and you realize that you are all alone. No one standing beside you, no one going through the thick and thin with you, no one holding your hand, and no one standing there enjoying the stars wtih you. You realize it is just you taking every day one day at a time. So it is just you wishing on the stars above that he will come into your life. I wonder how many nights I will have to stand outside, under the stars wishing for you to come to me. Wondering if you are out there.....Are you?

Why do people come into your life. Make you feel, make you love, make you want, make you need, make you feel special and then with one blow crush your heart and soul. As some of you know I have a big heart. When I feel or care for people I hold nothing back. I wonder when will I ever learn. That people don't say what they mean and mean what they say. I always put everyone first and find myself always getting put last. I don't have many people that I can call a friend let alone a true friend. I have been hurt bad by people that I thought either loved me, cared about me, or even related to me. When I care I give everything. I make sure that the person on the receiving end gets my full attention. I would rather go without then to disappoint that person. Whether it is a boyfriend, friend, family member, etc... But, why when it comes to someone caring about me I'm always last? Why do people say things that hurt my feelings? Why do I always have to make time for them? Why can't they make time for me? Why can't they try to give me that little bit of attention that doesn't cost anything but, a little time and consideration? I have thought about this and even though I have a big heart and care so deep. I will shut myself off, close my heart, and be alone. I figure that I'm better off being alone and not hurting. Than opening myself up and getting hurt over and over. As a person you can only take so much pain. Let alone letting people take advantage of you and walking over you. Someones heart isn't suppose to be taken for granted. A heart is something you protect, you cherish, you appreciate, and you love. Again, to those you who know me know what I give. You know I don't ask for anything in return except to accept me as I am. But, for some of you you forget that it isn't always about you. It is about the other person as well. Next time you start to speak think before you do. Next time you make a promise make sure you can keep it. Next time you tell someone you love them make sure you mean it. Next time you want something make sure you can give something in return. Next time you find yourself alone remember...You had someone at one point that would always be by your side but, you took me for granted and I'm no longer here.