Flea's blog: "Flea's Place"

I've lost my way my friend I'm lost and in fear of the end there's no safety in pretend the sanctity of my sanity is near the end I've crossed the fields I've burdens I wield like cherished heart strings bend broken streams descend Nightmarish fantasies assault my reality garish affronts to sanity Whom do I feel beckoning my sighs my cries my need for a woman's thighs So I ask of you my friend would you remember me in the end with kindness perhaps a song wine while we smoke the last bong "remember me" as the king once said remember the joy of things we once did For we'll meet again my friend @Aug,1999

Who would lead me out of darkness Through the stars Into the night Insanity's gift Is no respite For a prayer's Journey tonight @Aug,1999

Thinking of You Perhaps it's just a sign of my disillusion Comparable to an affliction Feelings compounded by confusion Emotional contradiction I've no reason to believe Documents to confirm disease somewhat impossible to conceive your still haunting my fantasies Like a fragrance that refuses to leave I find you lingering in my memories others may disbelieve Bereft of alternatives than fantasies It's you I savor I've just a shiver Remembering your flavor It's a longing that lingers And still heartaches bleed unrequited need Bleak landscapes sterile seed Fantasies bleak attack Attached to a fact there’s no turning back Of desires turned black And Fantasies dead seed @Jul,1999

Hold me close and let me know what it is that brings you here where upon your love will shine Will the passion grow Burned with embers of fear cherished sacrificial wine And there are no tears Wanton halo Held in a brazier All done in a quarter time @Oct,1999

Frightening aspects of reality Asphalt fantasies Veiled childhood memories Seeking to find that forgotten song Bleeding from memories long gone Feeding often on bile and bone And still In the chill Longing Conscious and yet still dreaming Hampered by the knowing Fear and loathing Forced to be your special friend Cursed for not being like other children Dammed for participating in your special sin And still I feel ill Wanting Forced to discern pleasure from pain Cursed with knowledge Perched on the precipice with the insane Unwillingly yearning to participate in your sin @Aug,1999

You tempt and tease Attempt to please with beauty's lament You've no cross to bear For it's a burden I'll not mind Gentle caress to me there As you speak to me from behind Commanding Demanding As the stars to the night You've no right And yet the sight Of you standing there Commanding there My hearts rent at beauty's lament @Aug,1999

Distressed Disillusion I remember a touch I remember so much I remember distinction I remember gentle feelings Caresses and attention bring a sort of smile Careless direction Brings thoughts of denial Flotsam Dripping Directionless feelings Floundering Reeling Trying to forget feelings I wish to be filled like a lake beneath a hill With heartfelt attention Not this rotting apprehension Splashing Crashing Falling down Awakened from disaster with a frown I feel surrounded by feelings Heels grounded and bleeding And still floating about these constraints I find some remains of shoreline laughter Reefed pitter patter Hope remains in this Waves of bliss Wrapped in the embrace of a warm pair of breasts @Aug,1999

Obsession An imperceptible need Bordering on greed Finding yourself yearning Unable to cope with the burning Impression Comprehension Lack of discretion Feeling without being there Learning to caress air Finding yourself distracted by a thought Remote contractions that leave you distraught And yet as your set to bleeding Bent Spent Set to kneeling Comprehension of what your needing @Jul,1999

Remembered Prayers I seek the end in prayer searching for a friend there I'm hurt again because you know how to pretend But it's not as if you care Not as if I dare To walk away from the madness And still I feel the chill of your disapproving glare And All I can do is *sigh* stumble round and cry And remember half hearted kindness On my knees today For the end I pray And remember prayers hadn't died @Jul,1999

THE FREAK TEST HAVE YOU EVER.... 1.Had sex? (5 points) 2.Given oral sex? (5 pts.) To orgasm? (5pts.) Received oral sex(5pts.) To orgasm? (5 pts.) 3.Swallowed Cum? (5pts.) 4.Practice bondage, or Sado-masichistic behavior?(5 pts.) 5.Had anal sex(done to you,female or performed, male)? (5pts) To orgasm? (5 pts.) 6.Had sex with someone of the same sex?(10 pts.) 7.Had sex with more than one person at a time?(10pts.) 8.Had sex with more than one person in a week? (7pts) 9.Used sex toys? (7 pts) 10.Brought a dirty magazine? (3 pts) 11.Watch a porno? (3 pts) 12.Been in a 69? (3 pts) 13.Had phone sex? (5 pts) 14.Masturbated? (5pts.) In a public place? (5pts) 15.Had sex in a public place? (5 pts) Park? (1pt) Subway (3 pts) Alley Way?(2 pts) Train or Bus Station? (3 pts) Public Bathroom?(3) 16.Gotten carpet burns? (3 pts.) 17.Participated in an orgy? (10 pts) 18.Watched someone having sex? (7 pts.) 19.Had sex with others watching you? (7 pts.) 20.Sucked or licked your own : Females- Breast or pussy? (12 Pts) Males-Dick? (12 Pts) 21.Paid for sex? (8pts) 22.Been paid for sex? (8pts) 23.Had a one night stand? (8 pts) 24.Pass out during sex? (5 pts) 25.Had an STD? (8 pts) 26.Had sex without contraceptives? (6 pts) 27.Had sex anyplace other than the bedroom? (3pts. for each place.) Ladies extra credit: (be honest) 28.Ever received a facial (cum in your face)and liked it?(15pts) Men extra credit: (be honest) 29.Have you ever let a woman sit on your face to eat her out? (10pts) To orgasm (5pts) 30.Have you ever had a snow ball?(cum in someone mouth and put it in their mouth). (7pts) 31.Have you ever been video taped? (8pts) 32.How many different positions have you been in?(2pts per pos.) 33.Had sex for more than 4 hrs without stopping?(4pts) 34.Have you ever had your salad tossed (ass eaten out/licked for those of you who don't know)? (10pts.) 35.Have you ever had sex with any of your relatives and didn't know that person was related to you?(5pts) 36.Have you ever cheated on your boyfriend/girlfriend with sex? (5pts) With the same person? (3pts) Ended up liking them? (9pts) 37.Are you horny now? (3pts) Scoring: 1-25: How Does it look up there with the angels? 26-55: Ok, you know the bare minimum. Go join a sex-ed. class. 56-85: Ok, you're just on the outskirts of being a freak. 86-125: Welcome to the land of the FREAKS!! Here's your certificate that you completed the freak correspondence course. 126-170: You are a BONAFIDE FREAK!!! You could teach a freak class. 171 + : You are the Dean of Freak College. You're not only a client, you Da Freaky President. Share your score....If u like!!