faith is believing when you cannot see. Faith isn't easy, people lose faith in all sorts of things all the time. I have always been good with faith...until now. I was in love, a love deeper than any i have ever known, a love that i would have given everything for, and then some. Distance was no obstacle to me, time was meaningless. My faith was strong. But then i discovered a lie, and when the lie was not admitted to, i began to question everything that was told, my faith began to waver. I tried everything to quell my doubts, to keep my faith, but once it is lost, it is hard to regain. Finally, i asked for proof, as some will pray for a sign, i asked for proof. Even Thomas needed proof when Jesus had arisen from the tomb. I have never been a doubter, but i wanted to renew my faith, i wanted to be proven wrong. I was denied the proof i needed, i was told that proof would not be forthcoming, that it was not worth proving. So was i justified in losing faith, where no proof is given, or was i a fool, a faithless son of a bitch. I have always believed in God where no proof is at hand, and the only book of his deeds is full of holes, why could i not have the same faith in love. I am not the man i wanted to be
