In the end I am who I am, faults, foolishness, emotional breakdown and rants, bad decisions and good, first to criticize myself and push people away. My faults are too numerous to name. My stubborn nature always does me in and I say things I didnt intend, but for all I lack theres much more you see..
I am caring and concerned although I run my mouth when I shouldnt.. like most I've been hurt many times and yes sometimes I do tend to whine.. I have yet to find a friend who has stuck with me through the test of time; most of this is my doing I know, but sometimes we all blow.. I dont intend to hurt or offend but sometimes it builds up and I have nowhere to vent or let go and this anger was misplaced again
Now I'm not sure what to do I've hurt me as much as you.. tell me why its so hard to let go this time I can't stand the way I feel.. maybe its all in my mind
I dont know how to make it better; if I could turn back time I would, but then I think I am me and I woulda just run you off the next chance I got if I could.. as I've told you before I dont know why I do maybe I am just that miserable I know right now I wish I were someone else totally invisible
Whichever way this goes I just want you to know I do care for you and wish you nothing but happiness and know my regret over ruining our friendship has brought me much sadness.. I will keep you in my prayers that you have a long life and stay safe for even if I was the worst of friends in my heart you will always hold a place
If you think I'm a crazy bitch I can't say I blame you but I'm hoping that forgiveness and a second chance is in you.. too bad you'll never see this
