now i dont know if u know about seth the poem a farwell has his but now it also seems like justyn which oddly enough also went toward the tattoo i wanted with toxic love in it anyways... seth is clearly going to jail or prison for a long time and i just dont know how to feel the last things he did to me makes me hate him and i know i didnt deserve that but yet i love him... and yet i didnt want bad for him and sadly yes even though i didnt want to talk to him hoped id see him soon but with this i think it makes it offically final because after that he wont be the same and all with all that time to think and such its sad but i dont care does this make me a bad person that i dont care that the person i love is going away behind bars???
i feel so apathetic at times... sigh i just want to be loved and he finialy did for a long time was truly the only one i guess elfishly i know now i am truly alone
