Firestar Queen Goddessmember of the fuba's blog: "Teo's Fire Always"

            Depth of My Heart Desire

I hold my tongue.

I stare the blank screen.

I begin to weep to my heart pain over you.

How do I say words to embrace your heart with warmth towards me?

Should I speak what stirs within my essence for you?

Can I see the truth flickering in your haunting sultry eyes as I tell you all from the depth of my heart and soul?

Will you smile to the news of my love depth for you?

Or will just bait me with sweet lies to gain my one precious gift from me?

Come the setting sun, I look out about life; all I see is darkness and feel your haunting pain pulling apart.

Now I wish I had told you long ago of the love within me for you.

I turn to look back at the blank page.

My hands tremble like my beating heart, my breathing is fast, and my mind is lost within the fog of love for you.

Can I find the sweet words to tell you?

Yes, I can.

With the depth of my heart lurks a desire for you that no man can steal from you.

My heart and soul would walk thousand of miles to die in your place.

I see and feel your pain.

I even weep you tears that you can’t show.

I pace the floors at nights with thoughts of you.

My hands touch my lonely lips of sin wishing your lips would kiss them.

I stare into the mirror naked wishing you were behind me, so I can watch your hands touch my naked flesh as if you own my entire as yours.

I feel things that I know is wrong and against God, but I now know that you are the only man that can awaken my sleeping passion.

Depth of my love is endless as time and space for you.

I know I could kiss your dying lips and offer my life for yours.

How do I speak what I know deep within me?

I pray one day I can speak this word to you, but deep down I know I would be just mindless muse with no words or will to say such things.

My fingers long to touch your face of angel.

My lips want to be brave and bold to explore you in ways I never dream I could ever do to man like you.

Depth of my heart desire wants only you.

How can I turn my back on you and just find another?

I fear the passing time between us.

I long for your words to express you wish for me to come to you.

How I wait endlessly for you to come to see me as the woman, who would do anything to make you life more complete?

My thoughts at times betray me when I try to not to believe in you.

I know you have faults.

I know all the risk in loving you.

I have come to see and know, one day you may never be mine or love me back, but within depth of my heart desire for you.

I have to hold to possibilities one day you will come to me for all the love that can set your heart and soul free like you have done for me.

Teo, I how to find the way or words to tell you, I love you.

I love you with such boundless passion; I know I can love you within the shadows of life.

I know I can always be here for you, even if you never reach out of me.

But my heart and soul knows one day….

One day you will pause to think of me and my words, when you do.

Just turn around Teo.

I will be standing right behind you with my hands reaching out to you.

©2009 Firestar