Today i came home exhausted from boredom. see i had to wait at Paint and body shop while my wife haggled out the task of getting our rental car this morning. So while waiting , I was watching Wimbledon and basically getting aggravted at the wait.
By the time my wife came i was sleppy and tired. So when we finally got home after a couple of stops at stores. I laid down on couch and just went out. Boy, am i glad I did.
I had this incredible dream where i was talking with my sister. It was just like we always did driving and talking and laughing. I cant remember the conversation but I do remeber the feeling of love i felt. When i woke up it seeemed so real like it actually happened. What ever doesnt matter to me. The fact that i had this was my gift for today. It was like being given one last chance to just enjoy my sister and the one on one time we used to spend together. Its amazing though, even though i cant remember the conversation, i can still see her smile and hear her laughter. Yet more than anything it was that feeling of love i felt when me and her always spent time together. I guess that will always be her legacy to me.
Now whats incridble is the timing of this dream. Lately I;ve been going through some pretty intense feelings about family matters concerning my sister's family and our own. So when I woke up and thought about it, it was lke she was telling me she was watching and apprecaited what i stood for. So even in death , it seems we are connected and that will carry me through these times where i will always miss my laughing bubby. If i could i would go back to sleep now , if I thought I could spend just a little more time with her, So if you have siblings or friends , loved ones, take the time to enjoy them now. For one day all that you will have of them will be memories and dreams. An hey im sure as hell am not complaing about that.
