so i ask this question to all you readers out there......
What does a person do when they have finaly found everything they have been looking for in life? What is left after you have put all the puzzle peaces in to you?
So those of you who know me know that i am adopted and that i have been looking for both my biliogical parents for a long long time now well yall the serch is finaly over beucase i have finaly found the missing link. i found my father and it didnt go as bad as i would have expected. he wants to get to know me and who i am and is more than willing to form some sort of relationship with me. he is a great guy and i can now see where i get some of my trates from becuase i am alot like him even on the non phyical stuff like the books we read and the food we eat so its intresting to say the least. i have never before in my life felt like a whole human being untill now becuase now i know where i come from and some of why i do the things i do. i feel whole and normal and to compaire to something would be like putting together a puzzle that is really difficult like one of t hose ones that has like 3,000 peaces and than finaly putting in that last peace and it all makes sence and is compleat. well thats how i feel i was putting together my own huge puzzle and now it is complete no holes nothing half finished so to speak. and i have a very large large extended family with all my sisters and brothers i have 6 other sisters and 2 brothers and we all vary in ages so its easer to tell us appart and than to throw on top of all of that i have all my neices and nephews which is growing in numbers all the time this is a big family tree and it will only get bigger and bigger as the years go by. and we may be astranged from eachother with us all living in different parts of the country and state but as they say blood is thicker than water right. looking back at it all its alot to take in everything we have all been threw in our lifes but something that i have come to realise in my short life span life is too short to live in the past. and that it doesnt matter what you did its what your going to do that will be your driving point and who you are. I have had to do alot of searching about my self call it soul serching or what ever but i have come to learn that no matter how bad life got there was something there that was wroth all of it so i say this i live with out regrets. to have regrets means that you cant get over the past and you will let it rule your fututre instead of just letting your future be just that. if we keep looking behind us than all we will see is the ass end of situations. and we will be falling alot so look forward and keep on going dont look back life only gets better. i have had a hard time realissing these lil things in life but now that i do i can wake up each morning and smile and be truly happy becuase allthough what i have is not much. its what i have always wanted and now i have it and i wouldnt trade any one of my family extended and blood for anything in this world. and for those of you who would look down your nose at me and mine i have this to say "keep looking down at me and your gonna fall down. so pick your eyes up and look forward before you fall"
anyways yall im out gotta lot of things to do today and the rest of my life to do them so untill next time think about the questions that i first put up and try to come up with an answer
