why is it that when some one breaks your heart you feel like the world is falling down around you? something that i have never been able to figure out but i do thank this fact when some one dumps you there true colors show threw. colors that you blind yourself to threw your entire relationship. you protect yourself from them and you make excuses for them " oh hes just been working" " hes under alot of stress from work" " hes just not sleeping well" " he workes so much that he just passed out" you create in your mind something that there not and you dont notice when things start to turn into your nightmears .
see when i love someone and tell that person that i love them i look past there imperfections. where as no one else in this world could find them beautiful or handsome... the person that loves them will think the world of them no matter what. loving someone means loving them all of them every lil thing that makes them there own person. becuase if you dont all your doing is just hurting that person more and more so what if there not perfect who gives a fuck. so what if there a lil messy or a lil over weight some times people just cant help it.
it hurts to have trusted someone so completly than have them betray you by breaking your heart. they clame to have been your best freind as well as a lover and a grounding point but when they break your heart in this way it makes you wounder if everything they ever told you was just a lie. it makes you feel utterly worthless and degraded or in my case like a cheep whore.
whale all this may hurt now. i know that it wont be hurting for long and that i will get over it and over him. but i would like to thank him for finaly showing me his true colors becuase now my blind fold is off and i see that the problem was not me it was him. and also for teaching me what kind of person he really is just by the way i got dumped in the junior high way when this could have easly been taken care of in a much easer and less harsh way with out causing problems ya know the adult way.
But oh well people move on and life goes on i will go on. this is how it is and this is how it will be. Fate has better and bigger things instore for me all i gotta do is just trust in it and no one else.
