XaviRoseMaiden's blog: "thinking , reflecting"

Being Single 

Around others who only wish to share their bed .. 

but refuse to truly share their heart ... 

Is sex is only pelasure for pleasures sake ...

Lust ... 

Skin on skin .. 

But ... 

its not the pleasure i seek .. yet the connection the meeting of the souls .. 

Too easy is it to fall prey to the ones , with sweet honey like words .. 

only the next morning be just a memory ... 

to be one with empty feeling again ... 

we all wanted to be connected , some of us choose to be and some of us fake it for other purposes..

No this is not what i want .. 

if there must be skin on skin .. why not it be something of beauty of making love ... 

Of knowing each other .. by more than name ... 

Wanting each other for more than only lust .. but dare i say caring ? .. 

I wish this wasn't quite so strange to many ... 

No i dont want your bed .. 

 i dont just want your body ... 

I want to know you ... 

I dont want empty promises ... 

I don't want lies .. 

And yes it's ok to only make out ...

and hold each other all night long ..

. fall asleep in each others arms..

So many games are played during this flirting stage , sometimes its hard to tell when where games ends... 

Its ok to be Lonely ... but why must we lie about it ? 

Why can't we be more vulerable to each other , if we are naked after all ? 

Why are we so scared to be in love , to fall in love ? 

We are loves warriors ... 

We wear scars on our eyes , and in our hearts .. 

while looking for the one ... 

it seems like days , turn in months , months turn into years ... 

some say juat wait ... 

I don't know We must live life ... 

be with our freinds etc ... 

To experiencw life .. 

Not lock ourselves away in houses , on computers etc , cause these become our prisons and we become scared to venture out again .. 

And yet other times we need to keep away from the ones who only fake love ... 

fake connections.. etc 

It is such a minef out there .. if every time my heart was broken showed on my body with holes there would be so many ... 

And with irony .. what if we could see everyoes elses holes too ? would we then know .. they were a warrior of love like us ? 

And how could we stay clear of the ones who only seek to destroy either ocnscoiusly or otherwise ? 

or do we need these scars or holes to help us understand the kind of love we need ? 

Todays dating world is a minefield.. 

But there are incredible people out there still ... 

It takes time .. sometimes .. 

but other times just chance meeting and it go from there ... 

the less i look the better i find ... 

But it seems we must go on dates , it is a necessary evil like doing laundry and dishes ... 

if we don't how will we ever know what it is we seek ? 

No im not going out with you cause we're both single... 

no im not going out with you cause we have one thing in common .. i want more ...