lapses in judgement.....
Current mood: awake
sometimes tunnel vision can be more of a problem than what you think.
id like to give a shout out to all of the crazy fucked up chicks.yay for the interesting life i have had so far.cheers......... heres to you for teaching me some needed but extremely shitty lessons.
so over a period of time through school it was trying for good girls and that was not for me at all.good girls hate me normally and after checking my attitude and way of life i can understand fully why they did.the unlucky ones that hit it off with me were looking for something more exciting and maybe a little darker.i can think of a few that hit a wall after hanging with me for too long.they had a choice so i dont feel guilty at all anymore.thank you good girls for showing me that even church cant always save you when the influence of the supposed guy next door gets in you.uh huh......thanks.
thank you freaks for loving that i was a good boy to you.the freaky types had a thing for me and i have never gotten any good info as to why.i think that they were so fucked up at the time that i was the normal one..... so maybe that was it.they love to do things that youll never do with anyone else.... not just sex but things like trying to carve initials on you while your sleeping.hhhhmmm im not talking anymore about that one..... dammit.so lets say freaks can be fun but remember some good advice i was given when i was a young buck teenager...."keep your shoes on boy ....... never know when some woman will fuck you up". i laughed at that but its been a practice of mine in most cases.not all of them but most.
thanks to the mean ass wicked bitches for teaching me that you can never run fast enough to escape a pissed off woman.there are fucked up people of both sexes but on both sides the playing field is tipped a bit by emotion.men can be souless bastards and very hurtful in any way shape or form.women however are the more determined of the two because they do sick shit for the most part out of what they consider love.women who hate dont take the time to do anything more than petty revenge but thats not always the case .... ive met a few that nearly hated that man of thiers to death.love or what they consider love at the time becomes everything and all consuming to the soul.once i heard from one lady...."i love you so much that it would be nothing for me to kill you and own what you are forever"....Ok i will admit that not even Carl Lewis(olympic ass kicking sprinter) could have seen the amount of speed exerted over that little running session.probably the one time i didnt even bother to put the shoes on.
i dont have much experience with normal folks yet so ill leave that one till some other time.so far so good i hope.after all of those very different women and living through it not unscathed but smarter i hope that ive taken my licks and actually learned something from each one.i hate to say it but , because of what i have been and who ive met i am becoming the person i hoped so long ago for but never realized it.i would never take anything back not even the most horrible things because i came to realize that i am exactly where i need to be.i may never be everything that i want to be but one day ill be the very person i was put here to be.if that means that ill be some pervy old fart then so be it.im learning now.... finally .
keep it greasy.
Currently listening :
Resurrection
By Chimaira
Release date: 06 March, 2007
