Ok, here I go again. This time is a little different. I have more people helping me through this. Finally I think that I might be able to find my smile again. Though I don't down shift that quick. The divorce will be final in 2 weeks and a ppo put out tm. Everything is starting to come together to a head and working and talking is seeming to help a bit. I need the children to talk a little more when they start feeling bad about what happened. I plan on making some appts so they can get into a little sessions so they can talk or vent to someone who will not take it offensively and not hold it against them. Like me. My daughter is doing pretty good so far. Though she does act up some times, but its not as bad as her brother. I think that this time will go a little better with others here to help them along. I hope. Positive influence is always better and I think they can give it to them. My best friend tells me it will only get better, but I keep telling everyone that it doesnt make it hurt any less....I really hurt right now and I am always going to wonder what went wrong or how could I have changed things to make it better. But I won't blame me or the friends and children because it was his fault for the stuff that happened and he made his bed now he can lie in it....
Ya know I know things will get
