Icarus's blog: "Hope- by any other name."

Well, its been longer than a month, but I think I consider myself "single with no current options" since last month.

Damn slinky dust.

And that calling sensation is back.
Its constant.

It got worse when I caught myself staring at this young woman with a slightly better figure (rounder butt, fuller tits), and slightly different face than my ex (thinner eyebrows, thinner cheekbones).

First there was terror- on the off chance it was her, which I knew better, I've met this girl before, but the sunlight was coming through the window behind her... and she was staring back.

We were kinda frozen there.

For... quite a while.

I took the first step, but the spell was broken, and I walked out the door.
Shook up, and finding myself looking back more than once.

The calling got louder as I stared at that dark round in all the right spots sillhouette when time froze.

Yeah, I'm still attracted to my ex... I mean physically.
A lot of people are, its not a big deal.

I don't know what to do about this sensation, and now that its getting more intense I'm starting to worry.

Am I just slipping further? Or is there really someone out there reaching for me.

The mystic in me says someone needs me,
the pragmatist in me says get your rocks off and shut up.

I don't feel a particular guide or mechanism, no presence or compass, no particular attraction or need.

Just this weird resonant emptiness that's slowly driving me crazy.

And this isn't helping.