I know I write about sex or when I am just devistated..but I also get from my thousands of friends and fans that they really dont know me. I am nuts. Let's just start there.
I grew up in a Chicago suburb. My prestigiuos family still resides there. Every one of them has one if not 2 degrees including my parents. My Mother has dual Masters and my Father has his Doctorates.
You all say to yourself..how could this woman be from that type of a background? Well, i have a learning disability Dyslexia. Now it isn't as bad of a handicap as it was when I was young. Do not getme wrong, i do have an IQ of 138..and have never been mistaken as someone lacking intelligence..maybe just making poor decisions.
I met my ex husband when I was 19. I was going to College and wasnot making it very well. From there i moved to the East Coast where I had discovered how well I could hide behind Alcohol and substance abuse. I also found out that some men abuse women...Physically, emotionally, spiritually, financially..etc.
Years and years later..after working in Hell i mean a dealership for 14 years..I got divorced and moved on. The Alcohol and drug abuse stopped 10-2-00 and continues to be the first thing I turn over every day.
In 1994 I was blessed with a beautiful child who now is a crazy red head who I love more than anyone in the world.
In the last 2 years I have been diagnosed with a brain tumor 2x and have had a multitude of physical issues.Isn't it a hoot I get clean and sober and my body gets pissed?
The constant battle I have is Love. Once I open up to someone, I get my heart ripped out of my chest. I was always the ugly kid...fat kid...ugly people did horrible things to me..until I changed. Once I realized I can change things..it all happens. Right now is a time of realization. "The courage to change the things I can..."
I try to make it work where I am at and am launching a new website with the aide of a friend. I know things will all fall into place when needed.
For those of you who are here to see how far you can get by using people..shame on you. For my friends, thank you for always being there and listening. And for those of you who only want a piece of me, know one thing..I am a very beautiful yet intelligent woman who will love you forever...but hurt me and you will to regret it.
