I was burnt once already by love lost, 1
3rd degree decisions that you made where at my cost.
you where in a hurry to bury the hatchet you tossed,
It's still kinda blurry,i worry for whats gone.
I reminisce on the often back to when i was still your John, 5
We said we would be closer than we are and I long,
To hold you in my arms again like after dinner at your moms,
or reading from the Torah the traditions that press on.
Lagging on a cigarette til after your dads gone,
Laughing with yer sister at whatever Jeff had on. 10
Lookin at the list of memories and its mad long.
How'd I let it end? telling myself she won't be mad long.
Keep it to yerself John everybody's heard sad songs.
I've grown away from immaturities i owned,
found sumthin in myself no one else had slammed on. 15
Depends on nuthin' no one other than the one and only
soul brother living his life hands on,This is exactly the type
of shit that I'm on.
On to bigger and better horizons that i set my sights on,
the fights on. 20
11/21/04 french camp.manteca,ca.breakfast with Carmen
