I finally realize i am really getting tired of trying to keep everything workout. Specially when it seems that i'm the only one putting any effort. I have been so understanding of everything but i think it's enough. But how do i let go??? How can i say goodbye if i myself is afraid of being alone. What if the only thing that's making me hold on is the fear of being alone. How do i make myself put away the fear and face the reality that i am holding on to something that is not there anymore. I wish it was as easy as the lyrics of the songs, but it's not. I'd like to be free of my fears give myself the time and attention i've never given myself before. I've always given everything for someone else. How could i make myself let go.....

"Letting Go"

I think I'm going to take it slow
And tell you the things that are on my mind
Then you can drop me off at home for the last time
I only wanted you to know that
I always had the best of intentions

Look at what you put me through
Anything I would have done for you
But it's not how it used to be
When you and I were hooked on each others dreams
Got stuck in reality and you couldn't
Make everything feel alright
When I gave you the best of me I never
Thought you'd give me a reason
To tell you I'm leaving I ran out of
Patience when you started changing
And there's no tears left to cry
Kept on hoping we could find a way to make it real
And tell myself that it's getting
Better when it never will
And I would never want for you to be alone
Its so hard to tell you so
But I'm letting go

Now I'm not trying to regret anything
I that have done or the things I have said
Life has a way of change like the season
Summer, spring, winter and fall
Sometimes I feel all alone I wish
You were there on special occasions
Feelings for you I cant hide but
I know better than to drop my pride

But it's not how it used to be
When you and I were hooked on each others dreams
Got stuck in reality and you couldn't
Make everything feel alright
When I gave you the best of me I never
Thought you'd give me a reason
To tell you I'm leaving I ran out of
Patience when you started changing
And there's no tears left to cry
Kept on hoping we could find a way to make it real
And tell myself that it's getting
Better when it never will
And I would never want for you to be alone
Its so hard to tell you so
But I'm letting go

I've made up my mind (i've made up my mind )
No more tears to cry (now there's no tears left to cry)
I didn't believe you each and everytime
You said you changed I knew that things would stay the time
It would only be right if I went on with my own life

Kept on hoping we could find a way to make it real
And tell myself that it's getting
Better when it never will
You know I would never want for you to be alone
Its so hard to tell you so
But I'm letting go

Its alright I don't want another try
Cause I'm letting go
You can leave you don't even say goodbye
Cause I'm letting go

I'm the kind of person who would risk everything in a glance. I'd rather take chance even though how slim my chances can be. I'd rather do that than to regret not taking it at all. maybe the chance that i take can be the thing that completes me. Stop me from this long search i've had all my life. i know it can always end in pain and sorrow. And i would probably shed tears. But still it's a risk i'd gladly take. i'm not scared to take those chance, to have my heart hurt. I'm not afraid to shed tears and get my sole broken. I'll accept them all, the risk and pain.

Taking chances

by Livity

Jump in head first with no fear in sight.
Our hopes and dreams, growing bright.

A chance we take,
you and me. Hoping this is meant to be.

Shattered dreams, left in the past,
A new vision in sight,
But will it last?

Take the risk, this must be done,
for in the end, it is we who won.

~Marilyn Jennings Dunn

It was never that easy to express who i am, what i feel, what i'm capable of doing, what i can achieve. Specially to a world where everyone and everything seems to put me down. Where do i belong in a society who's judgemental and has high morals? Me, who does not care what people think and say about me, as long as i'm not doing anything wrong, where would i fit in? A society who values family, where would i go?? Me who grew up living in a house not a home. A child who never experienced a hug from my mother and a smile from my father.Where would i belong, someone who is known by everyone but understood by no one. I'm afraid to be alone. But where does a girl like me belong. In search of a place i will call home, in search of person i could call my own.You may not see it in me, i may not show it but in my mind there's always a question, Where Do I Belong...............

WHERE DO I BELONG

Anastacia

Life doesn't promise a bed of roses
Or white knights
Fields of emotions I'm trapped in darkness
Why me
Save me
To win this twisted war inside me
Won't justify the pain
Life doesn't promise a bed of roses

Lightening strikes the pages keep on turning
Help me to be strong
I'm floating in a sea of strange believers
Where do I belong?

They paint a picture of perfect nowhere blue skies
Within every lie there's a web of comfort
For them
Not me
To win this twisted war inside me
Won't justify the pain
They paint you a picture of perfect nowhere

I said now
Lightening strikes the pages keep on turning
Help me to be strong
I'm floating in a sea of strange believers
Where do I belong?

Where do we go from here?
I wish I would disappear
I'm a lonely soul
So far from home

Lightening strikes the pages keep on turning
Help me, help me
I'm floating in a sea of strange believers
Where do I.. I said
Lightening strikes, I said lightening strikes
Floating in a sea of strange believers
Where do I belong?