Samantha's blog: "Surviving my life"

I finally realize i am really getting tired of trying to keep everything workout. Specially when it seems that i'm the only one putting any effort. I have been so understanding of everything but i think it's enough. But how do i let go??? How can i say goodbye if i myself is afraid of being alone. What if the only thing that's making me hold on is the fear of being alone. How do i make myself put away the fear and face the reality that i am holding on to something that is not there anymore. I wish it was as easy as the lyrics of the songs, but it's not. I'd like to be free of my fears give myself the time and attention i've never given myself before. I've always given everything for someone else. How could i make myself let go.....

"Letting Go"

I think I'm going to take it slow
And tell you the things that are on my mind
Then you can drop me off at home for the last time
I only wanted you to know that
I always had the best of intentions

Look at what you put me through
Anything I would have done for you
But it's not how it used to be
When you and I were hooked on each others dreams
Got stuck in reality and you couldn't
Make everything feel alright
When I gave you the best of me I never
Thought you'd give me a reason
To tell you I'm leaving I ran out of
Patience when you started changing
And there's no tears left to cry
Kept on hoping we could find a way to make it real
And tell myself that it's getting
Better when it never will
And I would never want for you to be alone
Its so hard to tell you so
But I'm letting go

Now I'm not trying to regret anything
I that have done or the things I have said
Life has a way of change like the season
Summer, spring, winter and fall
Sometimes I feel all alone I wish
You were there on special occasions
Feelings for you I cant hide but
I know better than to drop my pride

But it's not how it used to be
When you and I were hooked on each others dreams
Got stuck in reality and you couldn't
Make everything feel alright
When I gave you the best of me I never
Thought you'd give me a reason
To tell you I'm leaving I ran out of
Patience when you started changing
And there's no tears left to cry
Kept on hoping we could find a way to make it real
And tell myself that it's getting
Better when it never will
And I would never want for you to be alone
Its so hard to tell you so
But I'm letting go

I've made up my mind (i've made up my mind )
No more tears to cry (now there's no tears left to cry)
I didn't believe you each and everytime
You said you changed I knew that things would stay the time
It would only be right if I went on with my own life

Kept on hoping we could find a way to make it real
And tell myself that it's getting
Better when it never will
You know I would never want for you to be alone
Its so hard to tell you so
But I'm letting go

Its alright I don't want another try
Cause I'm letting go
You can leave you don't even say goodbye
Cause I'm letting go