PhiloNerd's blog: "Random things"

A Drowning

It's the glare from the reflection
Making patterns in your eyes
It's the looking back in anger
With every second slipping by

Undertow has come to take me
Guided by the blazing sun
Look at everything around us
Look at everything we've done.

Please anyone
I don't think I can, save myself
I'm drowning here please, anyone
I don't think I can, save myself
I'm drowning here please anyone
I don't think I can, save myself
I'm drowning here please, anyone
I don't think I can, save myself

There's a tiny little window
Swarms of locusts fill the sky
Maybe I just disappear, If I can
Keep my head above the tide.

Please, anyone
I don't think I can, save myself
I'm drowning here please, anyone
I don't think I can, save myself
I'm drowning here please, anyone
I don't think I can, save myself
I'm drowning here please, anyone
I don't think I can, save myself

The Space In Between

All our blood lying on the floor
Sense the crowd expecting something more
Opened up, proudly on display
What we tried so hard to hide away

Blinding light illuminates the scene
Try to fill "The Spaces In Between"

Arms entwined in a final pose
Narrative drawing to a close
Still remain the things we couldn't kill
In your eyes I can see it still

How we choose the framing of the scene
Hate begins to spill across the screen

Blinding light illuminates the scene
Try to fill The Spaces in Between

Fur Lined

I can feel it taking hold
Now I am an animal
Now I am a chemical
Once again
And you caught me through the crack
Everything is right on track
I am never coming back
Again and again and again

Everything 
Everything is echoing
Is this really happening?
Again and again and again

Close enough to feel the flame
I can push it through the pain
And it was everything
Again and again and again

I don't want to lose control
I am just an animal
Just a fucking chemical
Once again and again and again

Everything 
Everything is echoing
Is this really happening?
Again and again and again

Everything 
Everything is echoing
I keep coming back again
Again and again

Parasite

Yes, I can feel you
Yes, I believe
Yes, you can have me
Yes, I can bleed

Parasite

Yes, now I need you
You soothe my mind
Yes, you have shown me
You stupefy

Parasite

Get it? Understand? Please?

new zealand new zealand 
you’ve caught me on a awful day
my little life is all fucked up
my psyche is in dissaray

new zealand new zealand
i wish i could enjoy you more
i wish i had more time         
to see your cliffsides & your blackened shores

new zealand new zealand 
i don’t know why i tour this way
trapped inside an aeroplane and 
twittering the scenery

new zealand new zealand 
i feel like shit what can i say
my period is 6 days late
my pubic hair is turning gray

but i don’t believe in the beauty standard 
and theres no way that i’m pregnant
so it’s technically
ok

everything is so beautiful here
the people on cuba street drinking their beer
i wish i could stay here and never go home
i wish i could be just like holly hunter in the piano
and not have to talk to anyone even though there’s nothing wrong with my voice
and just play piano and make love to hot local boys 

new zealand new zealand
you caught me at the end of tour 
my willpower’s collapsing 
and i cannot do this anymore

new zealand new zealand
my song is coming to an end
i hope you have enjoyed it 
and i also hope i get my period

i also hope i haven’t grossed you out 
but that’s what you get when you ask me to write a song about your country in twenty minutes

By: Trans-Siberian Orchestra

And the night and the dark
And the hopes and the dreams
As we all play our parts
While ignoring the screams

So we lie to ourselves
And we just carry on
Never stop, never turn
Don't admit what is...

Gone in to this twisted story
All these things so clear before me
Every path we've ever taken
Can't admit we were mistaken

In this night
Of my devising
Never live
And never dying

Each escape
I've never taken
Never dream
And never waken...

Somewhere

Someone's looking to deceive and

Somewhere

Young men die and children bleed and

Somewhere

Some have too much while others need and

Somewhere

Someone's looking to believe and...

♥

You have to watch the whole thing. I said so.

We are freaks; we follow the code of freaks
We are freaks; stand back and that's that
We are freaks; we fuck who we please and do what we choose
We look bad; we're not diseased or confused

We are freaks; we are butch we are fem
We are freaks; look at him look at them
We are freaks; I know this guy who can suck his own dick
And my mother has a friend who has 3 tits
T-t-t-true story

We are freaks; we follow the code of freaks
We are freaks; stand back and that's that
We are freaks; we fuck who we please and do what we choose
We look bad; we're not diseased or confused
One of us one of us
One of us one of us
One of us one of us
One of us one of us
One of us one of us
One of us one of us
One of us one of us
One of us one of us
One of us one of us
One of us one of us
One of us one of us
One of us one of us

And then I thought I was a freak when I shaved my head and I pierced my dick
Walks like a lumberjack and talks like a lady
With the flannel shirt, steel toe boots, Levi's faded
All hail
She's the king, she's the queen
All hail of the freaks, all the freaks on the scene
From the Bows of the Bowery to the bustle of Bombay
She's the bearded lady of Avenue A
That's the way God planned it
That's the way
That's the way God planned it
That's the way
That's the way God planned it
That's the way
That's the way God planned it
That the way

All hail
She's the king, she's the queen
All hail of the freaks, all the freaks on the scene
From the Bows of the Bowery to the bustle of Bombay
She's the bearded lady of Avenue A
That's the way God planned it
That's the way
That's the way God planned it
That's the way
That's the way God planned it
That's the way
That's the way God planned it
That's the way

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I almost apologized for the multiple song postings tonight. Then I remembered that this is my blog and I can do whatever the fuck I want. I also remembered that these songs are worth reading. So do it.

Rain falls hard
Burns dry
A dream
Or a song
That hits you so hard
Filling you up
And suddenly gone

Breathe feel love
Give free
Know in your soul
Like your blood knows the way
From your heart to your brain
Knows that you're whole

And you're shining
Like the brightest star
A transmission
On the midnight radio
And you're spinning
Like a 45
Ballerina
Dancing to your rock and roll]

Here's to Patti
And Tina
And Yoko
Aretha
And Nona
And Nico
And me
And all the strange rock and rollers
You know you're doing all right
So hold on to each other
You gotta hold on tonight

And you're shining
Like the brightest star
A transmission
On the midnight radio
And you're spinning
Your new 45
All the misfits and the losers
Yeah, you know you're rock and rollers
Spinning to your rock and roll

Lift up your hands
Lift up your hands

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Another from Hedwig and the Angry Inch.

&hearts

When the earth was still flat,
And the clouds made of fire,
And mountains stretched up to the sky,
Sometimes higher,
Folks roamed the earth
Like big rolling kegs.
They had two sets of arms.
They had two sets of legs.
They had two faces peering
Out of one giant head
So they could watch all around them
As they talked; while they read.
And they never knew nothing of love.
It was before the origin of love.

The origin of love

And there were three sexes then,
One that looked like two men
Glued up back to back,
Called the children of the sun.
And similar in shape and girth
Were the children of the earth.
They looked like two girls
Rolled up in one.
And the children of the moon
Were like a fork shoved on a spoon.
They were part sun, part earth
Part daughter, part son.

The origin of love

Now the gods grew quite scared
Of our strength and defiance
And Thor said,
"I'm gonna kill them all
With my hammer,
Like I killed the giants."
And Zeus said, "No,
You better let me
Use my lightening, like scissors,
Like I cut the legs off the whales
And dinosaurs into lizards."
Then he grabbed up some bolts
And he let out a laugh,
Said, "I'll split them right down the middle.
Gonna cut them right up in half."
And then storm clouds gathered above
Into great balls of fire

And then fire shot down
From the sky in bolts
Like shining blades
Of a knife.
And it ripped
Right through the flesh
Of the children of the sun
And the moon
And the earth.
And some Indian god
Sewed the wound up into a hole,
Pulled it round to our belly
To remind us of the price we pay.
And Osiris and the gods of the Nile
Gathered up a big storm
To blow a hurricane,
To scatter us away,
In a flood of wind and rain,
And a sea of tidal waves,
To wash us all away,
And if we don't behave
They'll cut us down again
And we'll be hopping round on one foot
And looking through one eye.

Last time I saw you
We had just split in two.
You were looking at me.
I was looking at you.
You had a way so familiar,
But I could not recognize,
Cause you had blood on your face;
I had blood in my eyes.
But I could swear by your expression
That the pain down in your soul
Was the same as the one down in mine. 
That's the pain,
Cuts a straight line
Down through the heart;
We called it love.
So we wrapped our arms around each other,
Trying to shove ourselves back together.
We were making love,
Making love.
It was a cold dark evening,
Such a long time ago,
When by the mighty hand of Jove,
It was the sad story
How we became
Lonely two-legged creatures,
It's the story of
The origin of love.
That's the origin of love.

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I adore this song. It gives me the happy.

*Edit* It also gives me the uber sad.

1. What do you think caused your heterosexuality?
2. When and how did you first decide you were a heterosexual?
3. Is it possible your heterosexuality is just a phase you may grow out of?
4. Is it possible your heterosexuality stems from a neurotic fear of others of the same sex?
5. If you've never slept with a person of the same sex, is it possible that all you need is a good gay lover?
6. To whom have you disclosed your heterosexual tendencies? How did they react?
7. Why do you heterosexuals feel compelled to seduce others into your lifestyle?
8. Why do you insist on flaunting your heterosexuality? Why can't you just be what you are and keep it quiet?
9. Would you want your children to be heterosexual knowing the problems they'd face?
10. A disproportionate majority of child molesters are heterosexuals. Do you consider it safe to expose your children to heterosexual teachers?
11. With all the societal support marriage receives, the divorce rate continues to spiral. Why are there so few stable relationships among heterosexuals?
12. Why do heterosexuals place so much emphasis on sex?
13. Considering the menace of over-population, how can the human race survive if everyone were heterosexual like you?
14. Could you trust a heterosexual therapist to be objective? Don't you fear s/he might be inclined to influence you in the direction of her/his leanings?
15. How can you become a whole person if you limit yourself to compulsive, exclusive heterosexuality and fail to develop your natural, healthy homosexual potential?
16. There seem to be very few happy heterosexuals. Techniques have been developed which might enable you to change if you really want to. Have you considered trying aversion therapy?

It is time for some more quotes, my dears.

"Give a man a fish, and he'll eat for a day. Give a man a religion, and he'll starve to death praying for fish." - Anonymous

"More people have been killed in the name of religion than by cancer...we're trying to cure cancer..."

"It's fair to say that the Bible contains equal amounts of fact, history, and pizza." --Penn Jillette

"If there is no God, who pops up the next Kleenex?" - Art Hoppe

"Freedom of religious belief is an inalienable right. Stuffing that belief down other people's throats is not." - Random internet person

"But who prays for Satan? Who, in eighteen centuries, has had the common humanity to pray for the one sinner that needed it most?" - Mark Twain

"In the beginning the Universe was created. This has made a lot of people very angry and has been widely regarded as a bad move".  ~ Douglas Adams

"Religion has actually convinced people that there's an invisible man -- living in the sky -- who watches everything you do, every minute of every day. And the invisible man has a special list of ten things he does not want you to do.. And if you do any of these ten things, he has a special place, full of fire and smoke and burning and torture and anguish, where he will send you to live and suffer and burn and choke and scream and cry forever and ever 'til the end of time! ..But He loves you." - George Carlin

Since I dared you you obviously have to do it :P

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RULE 1: You opened this; you GOTTA take it

RULE 2: You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages you and asks!


LAST PERSON YOU....


[1] Who was the last person you texted?
Keisha


[2] You were in the car with?
Jen ^.^


[3] Went to the mall with?
Jen


[4] Person you talked on the phone with?
My mum ^.^


[5] You messaged/​commented on Fubar?
SSS

T/F Only answer with True or False

Q:Kissed some one on your top friends?
True

Q: Been searched By Cops?
False


Q: Been suspended from school?
False


Q: Sat on a roof top?
False


Q: Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?
False


Q: Broken a bone?
True


Q: Have shaved your head?
False


Q: Played a prank on someone?
True


Q: Had/have a gym membership?
True


Q: Shot a gun?
False


Q: Donated Blood?
True


WOULD YOU RATHER:

[1] Eat or drink?
Eh... Eat


[2] Be serious or be funny?
funny


[3] Go to the beach or mountains?
Oy... I suppose beach since I live in the mountains ^.^


[4] Die in a fire or die getting shot?
shot


ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

[1] Sun or moon?
Moon

[2] Winter or fall?
fall


[3] Left or right?
right


[4] Black and white or colored?
depends...

[5] Do you wanna get married?
... refer to last blog, lol


IN THE LAST WEEK HAVE YOU:

[1] Kissed someone?
yes ^.^


[2] Been hugged by someone?
yes


[3] Been poked by someone?
Nay

[4] Cried?
Nay

[5] Gotten in a fight?
No


[6] Told someone you loved them?
Daily!