NAUGHTY NURSE WCUFFS's blog: "*Naughty Handcuff Nurse*"

You know, lately I have been thinking that I'm being led on by people. I am so nice to them and shit but they just seem to blow me off. If shit like this keeps happening I'm just going to cut off all contact from all my friends ...cause I am tired of being used and blown off.

If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior. Allow your intuition to save you from your headache. Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be. Slower is better. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy. If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then NO, you can't "be friends." A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend. Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is! Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You will be mad at yourself later for staying when things are not better. The only person you can control in a relationship is you. Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, and he's not going to treat you any differently! Always have your own set of friends separate from his Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something bothers you, speak up! Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later. You cannot change a man's behavior. Change comes from within. Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are! Even if he has more education or in a better job. Do not make him into a God. He is a man, nothing more nothing less. Never let a man define who you are. Never borrow someone else's man. If he cheated with you, he will cheat on you. A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you. All men are NOT dogs! You should not be the one doing all the bending...compromise is a two way street. You need time to heal between relationships, there is nothing cute about baggage! Deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship. You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you... a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals...look for someone complimentary...not supplementary. Dating can be fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right. Find a guy, who calls you beautiful instead of hot. Who calls you back when you hang up on him. Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead. Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats. Who holds your hand in front of his friends. Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you And how lucky he is to have you. Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, "That's her!.." Make him miss you sometimes... When a man always knows where you are and you're always readily available to him... He will take it for granted. Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need. Never make a man a priority, if all you are to him is an option!

I really need to vent. So if you want to stop reading now is a good time to do so this is not going to be pretty at all. You know I try to be all nice and cheerful for my friends but sorry it just does not work . I try to be there for anyone that needs me but where does it get me. Somedays I just do not know what some people want from me. I try and try and try and never seems to be good enough for someone. Reason being the name before this one. My Give A Damn Is Busted. I am getting to the point, I just do not give a f*ck anymore. My life itself is so screwed up right now, but I put the smiley face on like everyone wants to see but inside I am dying. Some days my skin just crawls to have to be the nice sweet person everyone wants me to be. I would give the shirt off my back to help almost anyone. But it seems all I get is hurt, disappointment and someone using me one way or another. So when people ask me why I build the wall around me that I have, this is why. It protects me from being hurt. I expect nothing so then I will not be disappointed. I do not get too close, then I will not be hurt either. Well I have thought about it long and hard. I am going to be ME. If something is bothering me, I am not going to hide it anymore. My TRUE friends will except me for who I am. Somewhere along the way I lost ME and just cared about everyone else. Well I am not getting any younger, I ready to start thinking about me also. I am not trying to be mean or hurtful to anyone in my life but I have so much my plate at the moment it is hard to get thru one day to the next. Ok I am done venting. I am off to my corner now

“What is love? This mystical, mythical question goes back to ancient times-without a coherent answer. Each person’s experience of love is uniquely varied, and each person’s understanding of love is different from the next. Love varies from one period to another along the length of a human life; a person can have many loves, but each experience will be different from the next. Summing it up, or pinning it down, are both impossible. Love is like the sunshine; no matter how tightly you shut down your heart, the sunlight will find a way to shine into it. Love’s process is unstoppable. Love is like a continually shattering mirror that always leaves behind images etched in people’s hearts; but it will itself remain a mystery forever. Many people give themselves over to this mystery, but while love can produce the most tender and delicate feelings in anyone’s soul, it alone can open a window in the hearts of a very few. A simple analogy might be that of spring water which satisfies an extremely thirsty soul. Imagine, in the intense heat of midsummer, a very thirsty shepherd, using both hands to scoop the running water from a roadside creek to drink with a joy that satisfies his thirst. Such a sensation is beyond compare. Love is the kind of process described above; it makes you understand yourself. Only through this process, will you be able to become a soul, to become a part of life. Everybody has a different explanation and a different definition regarding the love they experience. The majority of people can suddenly fall in love with a stranger. If you ask them what they see in their lover, sometimes they can’t give you a clear answer. But the fact of their regard for each other is indisputable. Regardless of the secret mystery of love, it is a process in your feelings and in your heart. Love, too, always manifests itself in the body. Love will appear repeatedly in your life. Love is a kind of performance of the self, a satisfaction of the self; love is a kind of need, or is a much-needed satisfaction. Love is a kind of tendency toward both secret transformation and public transition. No matter what, if you fall in love with an actual person, you can feel your body making various unexpected changes. You might also realize that changes are taking place in your thoughts as never before. If this kind of phenomenon appears in your life, you may presume you are in love, for these phenomena are a form of love in themselves. Regardless of whether these phenomena last a long time or a short time, whether they are painful or enjoyable, they constitute riches, which will inscribe themselves in your heart forever. In brief, as a living human being with a soul, it is impossible not to fall in love in the course of a lifetime. Love is like the sunshine; no matter how tightly you shut down your heart, the sunlight will find a way to shine into it. Love’s process is unstoppable. Therefore, my advice would be: Don’t waste your precious time trying to define the meaning of love. The best definition is already in your own heart and mind

As I sit here, I was thinking about how we all long for that loving touch, loving caress, loving kiss, to hear the words " I love you" and for them to actually mean something. When you think that you have found found something and it starts out happy and then the walls cave in, what do you do? You have your choices..you can run and hide for a bit, but that does no one any good, you can have a good cry or laugh and move on. I will admit that I too miss the warm body next to me, having that someone hold me and tell me they have missed me after a day's work or that I can leave them a little note to say I love you on the bathroom mirror for them before they go off to work. I also will say that after being single for a few years, it will be hard to drop a wall at least half way down to get a glace and learn to trust and to accept that what that person tells you could actually be for real. This is where your head and your heart will constantly battle for first place to be right and you will ultimatly have to take a step back and look at the picture from the outside because you know that your past has come into the picture and is nagging you about something and isnt going to let your present be happy, so then you think...well hell, why even think of the future, so give into the brain and shut the heart out. We try to drain out the heart by many different things, some chose work, sports, hobbies, writing, reading, drinking or even drugs and I am sure that there are many other ways to shut that creature up. But in the end..that creature.. will creep back in there when you least expect it and make you yern for those feelings again... as women..we may cry and call our friends, or get a sappy love flick and a bottle of wine and cry or as men...just call our friends and go out for the night and forget about it until it hits us again.....

in a plate strawberries and chocolate so seductively licking so slow now looking at you with your eyes fixed on my play swirling my tounge and closing my eyes then licking my mouth and then to you I say would you like some strawberries and the chocolate drips on your lips and my fingertips wipe it away and your eyes fixed on my play as I lick ever so slowly my magic works wonders!

This Heart In this heart there was a place that remained alone, an empty space. The heart was shattered torn, ripped, and used was hard to believe it could be refused. It took awhile longer, scars back on the mend, now it beats faster for a brand new friend. A smile was born and push came to shove this heart has found a brand new love.

To all my friends; What would life be without friends? We wouldnt have someone to laugh with. We wouldnt have someone to hang out with. We wouldnt have someone who listens to our complaints,happiness,problems,pleasures or our thoughts. We wouldnt have someone there when we call because something tragic has happened in our lives. We wouldnt have someone that cares and thinks of us on those special occasions. We wouldnt have that person who means so much to us. We wouldnt have that person we worry for and care so much about. We would be awfully alone if we didnt have friends. So no matter where you are in life or no matter the situation just know that life wouldnt be much without friends.......I am happy that I can call you friend!!!

If.... If i ask you to kiss my lips Would you ask which set?? Or would u pick the ones That seem 2 make u sweat... If I ask you to let me ride Would u ask in what direction?? Or would u let me choose Based on the size of your erection... If I ask you to love me down Would you start from bottom to top? Or would you just go for the spots That make me say "Don't stop" If I ask you to scream my name Would you think it was a test?? Or would you just yell it to the rooftops As I give you my best without rest If I tell you to give it to me hard Would you give me all u got? Or would you hold back and tease me Until u feel I'm hot... If I asked you for variety Would we do sumthing different? Or would we do the tried and true Just because you love my belligerence.... If u wanted reciprocation Do u think Im that chic?? I can answer that for you... This girl can drive a stick!!

Here I stand, Until the time Was it a crime to see what cannot be touched Hear voices speak words that can't be undone Was it my fault I was invincible To the naked eye, I am invisible I cannot be seen Because no one wants to see me I am different Different from the rest of them So they ignore me But I don't ignore them No one is friendly Why were they so blind Because I am not them I am only mine I am different But I can see But they can't see me I watch them fall Divided they fall Together they die But here I stand Until the end of time Was it a crime that I was unique Original to the human mind I was invisible to there standards Invisible to their lies But as they kneel to beg I watch them beg But here I stand until the end of time Was it a crime for me to live my life A crime for wanting to survive No one would answer So I will wait until the end of time