gothgirlpunk's blog: "Life/love/hate/death"

Hi every one i sell AVON now so if you want any thing contact me and i will let you know how to do it or by for me contact info will be sent o u via email just leave your fully name number and i call you and work with you and i have a nother job interviwe tues then next tuse a class for avon so ya it was great i am happy where i am in life if i dont have a reguler job i can work at home when free and make money when i want and do partys and more so it great i hope to do it for the rest of my life say if i have a kid preg and off of my norm job i can still be working i can breast feed and do every thing i am happy this is what i need and i have sexy bf and my fav show is on now alot more THE L WORD i want to say hey to sam and cara and ioann for helping me doring the ruff times of life and rest are lil moma that in heaven and every one else OH YA OCT IS NATIONAL BREAST CANCER AWARENESS MONTH DONT FOR GET TO CHECK YOUR CHEAST AND EVER ONE WHERE PINK AN TAKE A PIC AND SEND IT TO ME AND I MAKE A FLORDER ON MYSPACE PLZ DO THIS FOR ME YOU SHOULD KNOW WHY I WANT THIS MY MOM PASS AWAY CUZ OF IT AUNT AND GRANDAMA

i had to put my hamster down today i am a lil sad today i will love and miss her well i got to go talk to you all tomorrow bye

they have all kind of doll out their but they are never like real people where is there a fat doll or your babys daddy or slutty spears dolls i want to know why they all have to be model thin mantel and all the doll makers need to make hooker barbie i am out of the closet barbie how about an jewish barbie come on i know that not all girls look the same but they need to show that we are not all white thin amricans that are into pink that wheres shoes godddddddddddd what ever happen to preg barbie or teacher one they need to up do the barbies and have them more real

hey i got a evil step mom but not a evil step sis ever since my dad meet his wife my life been hard i got push to the side and shit oh well she does not know any thing about me she fallows me like hawk in my dad house she says she treats me like a dauter i cant even talk to my dad privet any more cuz every time i try to she is up his ass and it bugs me i been think about Edison the good old days with my mom and dad when i was happy when i had a loving bf that ment the world to me a dog i could see every day when sex was not a big thing when you could count on friends to help when you can go to the park and just hang with out worring about friends getting preg or dieing miss going down the street playing with the boys on my block and the 2 girls that i lived by having the neibers that you can talk to and hang out with going on the swing set in the back yard Dancing all the time ccd dont laught i miss cara hannah god rest her soul bradle alex catilan danielle nelly ioann justin andrew i just miss the crew of kid i grew up around nick sam aj all of them i miss Edison kids and teen that are now adults i miss riding my bike to school to smoke with my friends and shit i wish i could go back to my x andrew but he dont care about me oh well love and happeniness never shows it face to me so i deal with what i get i guess i fuck up in my life to be fuck over so bad by every thing

i am having a party right now and it sucks cuz none of my friends showed the guy that so call bf wont leave me alone and get it that we are over and i want some one else to be my birthday gift but no one knows that i am alive so yep partys sucks oh well i will always have a crush on some one that does not want me and never be happy

i cant waight to have my birthday party it be fun hehe i invited all my friends hehe and i be 20 in may yaaaaaaaa i am a lucky i did my hair blue i am happy having fun shit if you want to get me a gift get me money so i can get a new tat or piercing hehe i got to make food see u all later peace

sick in bed going to brazil dog is sick join the army got told that my friend like me since middle school like some one in a diff state trying to forget my x becoming me again finlly

every night i sleep and wonder where are you now i want to step out of my house run to you hold you in my arms i look up at night look at the fan saying this is not my home this is not where my heart is its still in Edison its still where i grew up its still where i use to live as long as i am not in edison i am sad when i am in edison i feel like you are with me in my arms i feel like your still alive edison where i meet my 1st bf 1st kiss 1st learn how to walk 1st every thing why cant i have edison back and being in love with my hubby and not being happy hurt me and him so now we are getting divourse and shit but i dream of every one i miss every one i have lost or moved away from if i could get my life back i would but i have to grin bare it and move on now i just want to be held at night dont matter who you are i just want some one to hold me and say every one that pass away is ok and tomorrow will be better but i cant see it that way at all i know i wake up i never see my mom again and i cant talk about her with any one cuz if i say her name i get yelled at i have to hid her pic from my step mom i just want her back that all i want is is every thing back to norm i want my family not fighting in every way