You say you don't know what it's like.
I'll tell you.
It's like looking through a window at a happy couple having dinner.
It's like being on a long chain... You're not confined but you can only go so far.
It's like existence is a movie that you hate, but are stuck watching.
It's like being in a freezing pool where the 5 mins of warmth from peeing is the only relief of warmth you have before the cold sets back in.
It's like waking up feeling great, and realizing it was all a dream.
It's like reaching out in the dark for a wall to guide yourself and feeling nothing but sharp objects.
It's like trying to breathe in while choking, and never suffocating but never fully breathing again.
It's like spending days getting ready to go somewhere to cancel your trip, and know you're never going.
It's like being the new kid constantly.
... it's kind of like that.