well it is 6:12 in the am and i cant sleep. i have alot on my mind right now. all the shit with the new house is just always on my mind. there is so much we want to do so much that we both think would just be amazing.we have no help really. when my sis finds out she will hate me instead of just not liking me and my neice acted cool with it till today.i told her i had to ask dave about something cuz it is his house as well as mine and that pissed her off and she got off the phone with me. its alot of stress and becuz of it it has caused a medical problem for me. i wont go into detail becuz i dont think you would to know about it but lol im going to have to call my dr today about it and me and dave are worried about it. Dave has been just great with all of this.He tells me not to worry about the medical thing but at times he shows he is worried.he is always so stronge for me when i need him to be. a few months ago my docs thought i had Leukemia (spell way wrong but i think u got it) he was scared to death like i was but he let me know that he was here for me and that i didnt have to ever go thru anything alone ever again.he takes everything so,i dont know how to put it in words but he really keeps me level when i need it.
