Wicked Butterfly's blog: "~{Wicked Butterfly's}~ Poetry"

Venomously I scream out in Blasphemy At the god who claims to love Only those good enough. Yet he says in his words so holy. "Everyone will know me" Give me a break! I can take no more. You, my made up "god" Are just a week metaphor. An excuse for other's to act this way or that. To scare children into thinking they'll burn if they're bad. I chose not to believe long ago. That life is nothing but a terribly written show. I see everything the way it is. Some would say I dance with the devil became his mistress. That I am a satanistic bitch The angel's undergarment itch. I don't care for I live in hell. A world full of hate, And "sin" breeds and dwells. Where is "God" I ask you, Where is he? When you are broken down, On bended knee. Does he hear your cries? Does he give a damn? He creates then destroys... What's the point in man? Pollute my ears no more With your lies and make believe. And don't say I don't have faith. For my faith is in me. I live my life the way I choose. I don't do things, because I am ordered too. No one is better than another. No one is different Together we suffer. If I let my peers hang me up If I am to be cruicified Does that make me like jesus? If for everyone else I died? Fairy tales that are grim... that's all they are... There's no truth to them.

The thoughts running in my head hold the image of my death. I have not more will I want to stiff and still. Numb from you and this life Numb from the wrongs that seem right. chaos is my mother Agony my Dad. When I think about my life. I realize it's all been sad. I fold my wings and hold my blade, Knowing I will never again kiss the dawning day. My colours shine only dim, And my faith has worn so thin. I give up I give in To the thoughts that play within. I slice the skin one more time, And watch the thickening crimson line. I lay myself in my tub, close my eyes as life goes numb. No one will remember the pained butterfly Who was away her sadness with suicide.

Ok I am not happy with CT right now so I am going to be in myspace if you wish to contact me go there. and search for ~{Wicked Butterfly}~ Later.

If you are religious... Don't read this. That is my warning. Venomously I scream out in Blasphemy At the god who claims to love Only those good enough. Yet he says in his words so holy. "Everyone will know me" Give me a break! I can take no more. You, my made up "god" Are just a week metaphor. An excuse for other's to act this way or that. To scare children into thinking they'll burn if they're bad. I chose not to believe long ago. That life is nothing but a terribly written show. I see everything the way it is. Some would say I dance with the devil became his mistress. That I am a satanistic bitch The angel's undergarment itch. I don't care for I live in hell. A world full of hate, And "sin" breeds and dwells. Where is "God" I ask you, Where is he? When you are broken down, On bended knee. Does he hear your cries? Does he give a damn? He creates then destroys... What's the point in man? Pollute my ears no more With your lies and make believe. And don't say I don't have faith. For my faith is in me. I live my life the way I choose. I don't do things, because I am ordered too. No one is better than another. No one is different Together we suffer. If I let my peers hang me up If I am to be cruicified Does that make me like jesus? If for everyone else I died? Fairy tales that are grim... that's all they are... There's no truth to them.

[This piece was written from 3 different points of view. There is the male, the female and then the brother so the second male, just incase any of you had any trouble following. ~{Wicked Butterfly}~ You are my love girl You are my world. I cherish everything you do. And everything you are. You hold my soul With you bliss is never far. You walk with me everywhere. Keeping danger away because it's scared. Hardened glares from other men. They look at me and want to defend. With you happiness is gone. With you freedom's what I want. Random people yell at me, I don't understand. Don't they know I am YOUR MAN. I watch you from the bushes as you go home. You don't have to worry, You're never alone. You creep my out with your empty eyes. I thought we were friends, But now it's you I despise. So many people tell me to turn you in. Perhaps I should, But where would I begin? You don't know it yet but you love me. You don't know it yet, But to me you are lovely. I would never do you harm. Now please don't fight, You'll make me bruise your arm. You're a freak A psycho Get away Just let go. I am not yours You are not mine Get out of my house. I'm telling you for the last time. You don't understand sweet Belle My love for you hurts like hell. I want to be with you always. My hand slipped I did not mean to slap your face. Please stop your struggle I don't want to give you another. You are crazy a fool! I claw your face frozen, Stone set and cruel. My own cheek is swollen with pain. I shove you out the door, Calling my brother's name. I saw everything that day My sister fighting As he slapped her face. The cops made him get a restraining order. But still he tried to court her. It was only six months ago She dissappeared. And from him, no one did hear. I think he killed her with his obsession. He never saw her as more than a possesion. One he could not have. And that in turn, Made him mad.

Okey here I go I am going to let lose. Lose control. I have to scream everything that's going through my mind. Mom you love me right? Why is it you act so fucked up? Why is it you turned around, And now hate us? Mom you think you're crazy? I dunno... A little maybe. I can't take another moment of this. cancer is taking me over... deal with it. I have to smile and pretend it's alright. That numbered are my nights. I am dying and you don't care. I will die on my death bed... Without my mother there. Where are you when I am spitting out blood, When the blood pours from my nose... What is in your mind? I do care to know. I am your child mom... Why turn your back? When in only moments I'll be gone? Mom... it's the holidays and I promise not to say. "I'll be gone in the soon coming days." Years I have I know.. But... through those years... You'll never know. The pain I will feel, The screams I will cry. You won't be the one person For whom I'll confide. You pretend to be lost in your head. When really I know, you're just playing dead. You want the attention you get. Well mommy dearest grow up. I have CANCER or did you forget. I don't complain infact you never knew. I have had cancer for more than a year... Actually it's been two.. I never told you and now you know. I am dying... Just thought you should know. Mom you know I don't want to die. But when I am gonna I wonder Will a tear shed from your eyes... Mom, you really let me down. But i know I'll forgive you some how. Good-bye sweet mom... my momments come to pass. I am about to fade away... Nothing forever lasts.

Broken Butterfly sitting alone The world is huge, don't lose hope. Stand your ground, Stand firm and never be afraid. Don't ever look down. Let them say what they will. You are beautiful still. Live for today never fold your wings. You're gonna be ok. So they hurt you So they don't care. You don't have to stay. You can fly away from there. Listen Voice of the wind I am just nothin. Why have these wonderful wings, No one cares, I am nothing. I sang songs of love, and hope. I danced with the breeze, But you my wind, got out of control. You let them break me. You let them hate me. Little butterfly you must learn to fly. You will fall, but don't you cry. You have to stretch your wings and do it again. I would never lie, trust me on this. Listen please I give you leverage, But not everything. You have to learn to fly on your own. The wind gets rough, yet soon you'll know. Up or down, or from side to side. No matter what you will stay aglide. Please don't give up for the words they say. They mean nothing, it's time you made a change. You were once the ugly little worm, remember? Now that you broke from your cacuun, you're altogether. Gorgous, magnifiscent Full of grace. Don't ever look down or hide your face. What if I never learn to stay aflight? What if I lose control? It isn't going to be alright! Wind, Listen I am just a bug nothing more. All your words of confidence, I wish you left them at the door. I thought my transformation was complete, But still... they look right past me. Wind, My friend I just want to let go. Give me a reason not to lose hope. I sit and I let my tears consume, Everything I am and everything I do. Please let the pain just wash away. With my tears, just let it fade. Why does the world shun me? Why won't they love me? Did I do something wrong? Why can't their hatred, Be prolonged? Why can't they hold it in? I can't hate them...So I forgive. Am I ignorant in doing that? Is is stupid to want them to take me back? No little Butterfly It's not ignorant in the least. The world is hurtful, Devouring us like a hungry beast. But we learn to live with the pains. Life is only made up of different days. Don't dwell sweet innocent heart. If you do, this monster shall tear you apart. Fly free and don't forget. To close your eyes and take a breath. Fine I think you are right. It's time this butterfly just took flight. I don't need the ones that hold me down. I was born to fly, not crawl on the ground! Wind, don't let me astray. Carry me to a better place. Guide my wings and I will fly. I know where ever I go, I'm gonna be alright. The butterfly flew from that hellish place Found greener grass and loved the next day. She befriended the wind beneath her wings, Than sang her tune of beautiful things. Flowers, meadows, and the warm sun. And she never forgot the ones she had loved. Time was great to the one with a good heart. She never looked down, and never fell apart. Her monster became a rose of white. And she took it with her, Never crawling and always a flight.

The scent of jasmine still clings tight to your shirt. I know that you weren't at work. The red around your eyes, Tells stories... Lies. You stumble forth to the couch. The beer scent spewing from your mouth. I could look away in dismay. Or love you for you come home each day. Why do you look to the whore with adoration? Why is it we share no communications? I stand up and guide you to our room. Letting the us become in the darkness; consumed. Four little words I just want to say. Do you love me? But Just whisper your name. "I love you my dear" Is all you shall hear. I cannot give in to my angry thoughts. Though most women would say I ought. I cover you with the blanket and watch you close your eyes. I touch your hair and quietly say good-night. Walking from the room, I know we are doomed. The alcohol will keep you away. And I will never say. "I want out and I want a divorce." Because Loyalty is what I am for. You will leave soon enough. And I will forever remember. Our drunken Love.

Scream My name! I hear your heart beating Claw my face! I feel your pain. How does it feel Dad?! Tell me how does it feel?! When you see so much of you So near. Are you going to beat it out of me? Till I can't take it anymore? Are you going to hurt me again? You can't; you're pinned to the floor. Scream my name daddy! Do you remember your little girl? What? I can't hear you. Had enough? WAKE UP! Does it hurt? Do you see? This blood. It's not from me! AHA HA! This is what you get. For hurting Your little girl in her red dress. I will never let you live it down Die Daddy I can't keep falling down.

Come sweet men I'll take thee away Into a land of darkness Thou know I hold The secret of lust, Lying within Thine loins Come sweet men I'll make thee my slave into my world of darkness Weak little men I cast a spell on thine hearts Never to escape my enchantment Come sweet loves I'll take thee away Into a world of darkness.