Okey here I go
I am going to let lose.
Lose control.
I have to scream everything
that's going through my mind.
Mom you love me right?
Why is it you act so fucked up?
Why is it you turned around,
And now hate us?
Mom you think you're crazy?
I dunno...
A little maybe.
I can't take another moment of this.
cancer is taking me over... deal with it.
I have to smile and pretend it's alright.
That numbered are my nights.
I am dying and you don't care.
I will die on my death bed...
Without my mother there.
Where are you when I am spitting out blood,
When the blood pours from my nose...
What is in your mind? I do care to know.
I am your child mom...
Why turn your back?
When in only moments I'll be gone?
Mom... it's the holidays and I promise not to say.
"I'll be gone in the soon coming days."
Years I have I know..
But... through those years...
You'll never know.
The pain I will feel,
The screams I will cry.
You won't be the one person
For whom I'll confide.
You pretend to be lost in your head.
When really I know, you're just playing dead.
You want the attention you get.
Well mommy dearest grow up.
I have CANCER or did you forget.
I don't complain infact you never knew.
I have had cancer for more than a year...
Actually it's been two..
I never told you and now you know.
I am dying...
Just thought you should know.
Mom you know I don't want to die.
But when I am gonna I wonder
Will a tear shed from your eyes...
Mom, you really let me down.
But i know I'll forgive you some how.
Good-bye sweet mom... my momments come to pass.
I am about to fade away... Nothing forever lasts.
