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Why does everything always have to be complicated? There's all these thoughts inside my head at once, and then there's the feelings on top of it that I just can't seem to ignore, no matter how much easier it would make things. Normally I'm the type that can just shut feelings and thoughts off without a problem. And yet here I am, finding myself unable to do that this time around. I guess it's just different this time, almost like I'm hoping something comes of it. I've thought about being able to say so many things, and yet I just can't seem to actually do it. I guess it's because I'm afraid it will complicate things, and that is the last thing I want to do at this point. Don't get me wrong, I like the way things are...it's just sometimes I wish I knew exactly the thoughts and feelings that were involved when it comes to me. Guess it makes things somewhat less complicated when I am easy to read, so it's easy to get a general idea of what I'm feeling, or possibly what thoughts I'm having. Not just anyone can accomplish that though, I just wish it wasn't such an easy thing to figure out at certain times. Maybe it isn't so bad when things are complicated though, might just be a chance to figure out how deep the feelings run and see where it could possibly lead somewhere in the future. I do know this much...I don't feel the same when we don't get to talk...that is something that means more to me than anyone realizes, and I'm just hoping that it doesn't stop.
