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Leo 
Your element: Fire
Your ruling planets: The Sun
Symbol: The Lion
Your stone: Peridot
Life Pursuit: To lead the way
Vibration: Radiant Energy
Leo's Secret Desire: To be a star
Description:
Love triumphs over all for this sign, which is ruled by the heart and operates from this dimension too. Leo's are born fortunate. Charismatic and positive-thinking they attract not only an abundance of friends and opportunities, but manage to survive life's stormy times with style and good humour.
Once a Lion is committed to a relationship, they are totally devoted and faithful. Should their heart or trust be broken they never forgive or forget. When a relationship breaks down (even a long standing one) they can disappear into the sunset without a backward look. Leos can cut ties, and leave others heartbroken, but usually there is a good reason why they have broken a tryst. For a Leo, when a relationship is over, really over, it is over for good.
There are three levels of soul-evolution of the Leos. The highest is represented by the Sphinx; wise beyond their years and great teachers to others. The second is the Lion, King of the Jungle, ruled by ego but always protective and sustaining of those they love. The last is the Lion Cub, immature and undeveloped, frightened by anything new. These Leos cling to others (in the mode of the child not wanting to leave its mother's side).) They can't bear to be alone.
No matter what level they have attained, all Leos are trendsetters, leaders and adventurers. Their weakness is their pride. This is one sign where the saying "flattery will get you everything" applies, but be warned criticism will slam the relationship door right in your face.
Ok, so let me explain. I was eating dinner with my Mom earlier, and she was looking at some magazine and saw these plush dogs that look real and "breathe". Well, she made a comment about the fact that our dogs would probably rip it to shreds, just as I took a drink of my juice. Needless to say, I tried my hardest not to laugh but it was too late. So what did I do? I covered my mouth so as to not spit fruit punch all over the table, only instead to have it come out of my nose. If you have never experienced something coming out of your nose before, let me tell you that it is not pleasant. My Mom of course started to laugh, as was I, simply because I know it must look funny to see it happen. I am still clearing fruit punch out of my nasal passages as I write this. Only positive thing is that it was not soda, that stings way more than juice.
Sometimes late at night
I lie awake and watch her sleeping
She's lost in peaceful dreams
So I turn out the lights and lay there in the dark
And the thought crosses my mind
If I never wake up in the morning
Would she ever doubt the way I feel
About her in my heart
If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face the world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes
'Cause I've lost loved ones in my life
Who never knew how much I loved them
Now I live with the regret
That my true feelings for them never were revealed
So I made a promise to myself
To say each day how much she means to me
And avoid that circumstance
Where there's no second chance to tell her how I feel
If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face the world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes
So tell that someone that you love
Just what you're thinking of
If tomorrow never comes
I've changed the presets in my truck
so those old songs don't sneak up
they still find me and remind me
yeah you come back that easy
try restaurants I've never been to
order new things off the menu
that I never tried cause you didn't like
and two drinks in and you're by my side
I've talked to friends
I've talked to myself
I've talked to God
I prayed liked hell but I still miss you
I tried sober I tried drinking
I've been strong and I've been weak
and I still miss you
I've done everything move on like I'm supposed to
I'd give anything for one more minute with you
I still miss you
I still miss you baby
I never knew til you were gone
how many pages you were on
well it never ends I keep turning
and line after line you're there again
well I don't know how to let you go you're so deep down in my soul
I feel helpless so hopeless
it's a door that never closes
no I don't know how to do this
I've talked to friends
I've talked to myself
I've talked to God
I prayed liked hell but I still miss you
I tried sober I tried drinking
I've been strong and I've been weak
and I still miss you
I've done everything
move on like I'm supposed to
I'd give anything for one more minute with you
I still miss you yeah
I've talked to friends
I've talked to myself
I've talked to God
I prayed liked hell but I still miss you
I tried sober I tried drinking
I've been strong and I've been weak
and I still miss you
I've done everything
move on like I'm supposed to
I'd give anything for one more minute with you
I still miss you yeah
I still miss you
I still miss you...... yeah.... yeah.....
I had big plans for our future
Said I'd give you the whole world somehow
I tried makin' good on that promise
Thought I'd be so much further by now
Never could build you a castle
Even though you're the queen of my heart
But I've had the best of intentions from the start
Now some people think I'm a loser
'Cause I seldom get things right
But you make me feel like a winner
When you wrap me in your arms so tight
Please tell me you will remember
No matter how much I do wrong
That I had the best of intentions all along
I gave you a ring
And I promised you things
I always thought we'd do
But my best-laid plans
Slipped right through my hands
To show my love for you
And if you could read my heart
Then you'd know without exception
It was all with the best of intentions
I gave you a ring
And I promised you things
I always thought we'd do
But my best-laid plans
Slipped right through my hands
To show my love for you
And if you could read my heart
Then you'd know without exception
It was all with the best of intentions
So here I am asking forgiveness
And praying that you'll understand
Don't think I take you for granted
Girl, I know just how lucky I am
Though you deserve so much better
You won't find devotion more true
'Cause I've had the best of intentions
Girl, I've had the best of intentions
Yes, I've had the best of intentions loving you
Why does everything always have to be complicated? There's all these thoughts inside my head at once, and then there's the feelings on top of it that I just can't seem to ignore, no matter how much easier it would make things. Normally I'm the type that can just shut feelings and thoughts off without a problem. And yet here I am, finding myself unable to do that this time around. I guess it's just different this time, almost like I'm hoping something comes of it. I've thought about being able to say so many things, and yet I just can't seem to actually do it. I guess it's because I'm afraid it will complicate things, and that is the last thing I want to do at this point. Don't get me wrong, I like the way things are...it's just sometimes I wish I knew exactly the thoughts and feelings that were involved when it comes to me. Guess it makes things somewhat less complicated when I am easy to read, so it's easy to get a general idea of what I'm feeling, or possibly what thoughts I'm having. Not just anyone can accomplish that though, I just wish it wasn't such an easy thing to figure out at certain times. Maybe it isn't so bad when things are complicated though, might just be a chance to figure out how deep the feelings run and see where it could possibly lead somewhere in the future. I do know this much...I don't feel the same when we don't get to talk...that is something that means more to me than anyone realizes, and I'm just hoping that it doesn't stop.
Okay, so this is probably going to turn out longer then I intended. I've been single for 4 months now, maybe a bit longer than that, I don't really remember now. All I know is that I was unhappy in my last relationship...my last girlfriend slept with my older sister, right after her and I had gotten together no less, and then lied to me about it and didn't come clean until after I ended things. We were together for almost 2 years...pretty screwed up huh? I thought being single for awhile would be good for me, give me a chance to get things straightened out...you know, getting a job and those sorts of things. I mean, it's nice and then it's awful at the same time. How you ask? See, I'm a very loving person...I give my everything in a relationship. I love the person I'm with no matter what anyone else says or thinks about them...they can be their self around me without me judging or trying to change them. I can be stubborn at times, very rarely show any emotion that I'm feeling...but that is because every time I did, it got me absolutely nowhere fast. You get so used to being with someone in a relationship, and the cuddles and sleeping next to them. And then, it's just you and there is no longer those comforts. I hate sleeping alone, and it's not that I miss my ex because I don't. It's just that I got so used to having someone to cuddle with every night, or just having someone to lay with and talk for hours while laying in bed. Or having someone to care for, knowing that the two of you make each other happy, regardless of what anyone else thinks. Knowing that no matter how bad of a day you have, you have that person to talk to, or cuddle with, or just to be able to have them wrap their arms around you and tell you it will all be alright. Is it stupid for me to want these things? So wrong to want someone that will understand me, no matter what? I have feelings and thoughts and emotions, and I'm really feeling like I want someone to share them with. And it has nothing to do with the sexual part of the relationship. Don't get me wrong, I would definitely enjoy that right now, especially since it's been 6 months without it. But I would rather be able to say that I have someone that I love, someone that feels the same way about me.
Oh well, just doesn't seem like relationships are my thing. Maybe at some point I will find someone that I connect with and understand, and then maybe I will get what I want. One can hope anyway.
