When I think of you my little butterfly
I think of how you fluttered casually
ever so carefully and alighted on me
you tenderly eased my heart out of hiding
I was ready to spend the rest of my life without a partner
too many women
too much time
I didn't think I would ever find someone like you
when I first set eyes on you
you never even knew I existed
I watched your figure walk away from me
your hips gently moving
you walked sleek like a cat
a tiger on the prowl
slim, slender
a wisp of a woman
I longed to get to know you
I would watch you from afar
and ask myself
how come I couldn't get a woman like that
I knew nothing about you
you always wore a sweet smile
you spoke quietly
shyly, your dark eyes gazing into mine
before lowering onto the ground
we met from time to time
I always hoped to accidentally bump into you
we chatted
I talked and detained you from work
more than I should have
but you didn't seem to notice
Smiling and saying good-bye
I would stand in the shadows and watch you
Your sleek form
Disappearing slowly
Walking away from me
I longed to catch up to you
Take you by the arm and tell you
How much I wanted to be more than
Just an acquaintance
But I knew nothing about you
my hopes were rocky
but I couldn't ask you out
I often meant to ask
if you were happy
you seemed distant sometimes
and blue
but then it could have been my hopeful longings
to be with you
One day I went to see you
I gave you a hug
you smiled shyly but your eyes looked sad
it seemed as if you were already fading out of my life
I wanted to hold you to me
so small
frail
I cared...couldn't you see that?
the next time I saw you, I couldn't believe my eyes
you came back
you listened to me
or God heard my longings
I wanted you
I didn't want to let you go
I hugged you a couple of times
harder and harder
you laughed
I loved your laugh
like little bells
you felt warm
you seemed happier
as I got to know you over the months
I would see the dark and light side of you
some days you were sad and silent
so I tried hard to make you laugh
you would smile but your eyes would tell the truth
soon we started to talk on the phone
it was crazy
then everything happened so fast
I knew that something was wrong and that you needed help
but you didn't know how to escape
one night you came running to me
you didn't know where else to go
it was like a dream come true
yet it was happening so fast
I didn't know what to think
you were trembling
you were crying
are you okay
I kept asking
you nodded
I knew that emotional abuse was sometimes worse than
physical abuse
the heart is tormented so much
the soul starts to die
I held you all night
I barely slept a wink
once you left my side to go to the bathroom
but you were gone so long
I checked
asking if everything was okay
I slowly opened the door
you were on the floor with your head on your knees
shoulders shuddering
the ground cold beneath you
I held you and kissed you
you were so tired
you were silent and scared
I was afraid that maybe I was moving too fast
that you were trying to figure things out
but I couldn't help it
I waited so long
and I knew you desired me as much as I desired you
when we first kissed
your whole body melted
your lips were so soft
and your tongue was warm
you cried
I was falling in love you
I wish you would let me inside of your heart
I won't hurt you
I will always be your knight
your protector
your defender
your lover
your friend
That's what I think
When I Think Of You, My Butterfly
