SO far things are actually going really good I have two jobs and I'm Kickin ass makin that money and saving to get the hell outta here and be on my own with My Man!... But even though I would really enjoy being on my own as of right now i know that its not the right thing cause moms needing some help so Ill be the good kid I am and help her out till shes stable enough and so am I to leave for good and start my life... Some times certain situations fuck things up in life but I think its the goddess throwing us a curve ball. Eh oh well.. I am just Happy! Happy that My man keeps me satisfied and Happy that my family is as close as ever. Things are looking pretty good. Hope they get even better.
Its hard when you are finally able to love some one so unconditional just to have there love seem as though its dwindling because of the way you live, because of others bringing you down .... i hate this feeling of being ripped from the only one ive ever loved so unconditionally. To know that he loves me with every fiber of his being an yet i can barely see him..and it kills me to know thats its all my fault that hes hurting right now , and im the one thats squeezing his heart because im not able to see him often... Please I pray to the goddess help me ...help me to understand. I love him and i never want to let him go i just need some guidence ...something! Blessed be!
Some times i just really dont understand men. One minute there alright and chatting with you the next minute you want to break there jaw with a baseball bat... Wheres the happy medium?? It just really bothers me when im trying to have a convorsation and im being almost like ignored because he rather play some dumb video game. The thing is Im not against video games at all just the sheer fact that i dont live close so when im being spoken too id like to be payed attention to is all! Is that to much to ask? Jesus fuckin christ ... i just needed to vent and as sad as it is on here wasnt such a bad idea.. just Hope that i dont have anymore like this.
xoxox the pissed off bitch!