ok today i realize how depressing it is to be away from home, im in some hole in the wall place in mississippi and only been here for 3 weeks and its driving me nuts there is bearly and women here, and there is nothing to do, this is the most depressed i have ever been, i feel as if my life is nothing or i am a puppet and they are pulling my strings just enough to keep me alive and nothing else im lsing out on so much happiness and for what to help someone, but knowing that im helping someone is not satifying me any more what is there to do
