insomnia blows. my days get slower and slower. my chainsmoking gets worse and worse. i know i should quit, but when you're awake for 3/4's of every night and day, what else are you suppose to do to keep yourself occupied?
i'm starting to get a headache. i've already had three, but that is mainly do to withdrawl. fucking paxil.
i think i curse too much. i talk like a trucker driver, however i don't really mind all too much.
i haven't written anything in days. i can't seem to find it. i wonder how i'm ever going to get a publishing contract. where my book gets published and i'm forced to get new material out in a year. one year to bleed on pages and make it sincere. too bad you couldn't take a pill for writers block...someone would make millions. other people would make thousands. everyone wins.
i've also wondered why they can't just make one super toothpaste. i went to buy toothpaste at walmart and i stood in front of all the gleaming boxes. whiten. tarter control. cavity protection. enamel protection. sensitive teeth. mint. spearmint. lemon. crystals. pastes. gels. all for one specfic action.
i figured that there has to be a way to make a do everything toothpaste, but then again all the chemicals in one toothpaste i'm sure would eat your mouth.
and that is not sexy.
go figure.
i'm rambling.
