Sitting here on my love seat by myself
Remember parts of my life that I wish I could change
The one I loved with is lying in bed.
I pushed him away because
Of the secret I have
I seem to push everyone away
I walk away knowing it killing me inside
But I, know I have to
I already cause enough pain to him that I could not bare hurting them no more
For years, I found myself with friends that I walk out on them
I can pick up the phone and they, are their for me
I’m walking away to keep from hurting him
He can’t handly my action to my secret
I don’t blame him
I slowly learning
Yea
I getting better
With medicine and counseling but
I, about ready to walk away
because I making the same mistake
just getting a litter smart
Walking away will be the hardest thing for me
but I, know it not right
In time I get over it or start it all over again
Walking away is the only thing
I know
and I, yet found someone to say
“Hay, I care and I don’t want you
walking away.”
August 2005
