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No one can hear it the sound of tears falling a poned the pillow cases. Why would they care i have nothing to offer them just a shadow of someone they want to be i loveing heart caring soul but not enough to keep them alive to much fighting to much you said i said its not worth it. i want to close the door but don't have the streght enough and love to much. the alchole dont' drown my tears. it wont take uou out of my mind my heart wont give up and the hole reason to drink is to give up on you but you stay right there in my heart and soul not give in

You would think by now I could move on with my life. The pain has mend itself The anger has left, like the storm passing by. And I still see I hopeless in love with you. you move on without a care. The words you said to me still play in my head. Just like it was yesterday you said them I found myself hopeless in love with you I went down a few roads since our goodbye. but none could satisfied me because I am hopeless in love with you day dreams of you coming home hold on to something that I should not I hopeless in love with you No matter where I look No matter where I turn I am hopeless in love with you. No other is like you no other can make me smile like you do. No other can hold me I am hopeless in love with you

where is America, He died for you and me, for our freedom. but as today looking out where is america where is america voices that suppose to be so strong where is america when its our nations birthday. why is america voices die out where is america the land of the free where is america that my dad fought for back during world war II where is america the beatuiful where are america hidding. where is america one nation under God.

Where do you go When the world has turn you away where do you go mothers give up on their daughter where do you go when the book of life has close when the one you love leaves you standing on your own Where do you go to escape relaitly to burial the pain of broken heart Where do you go when you stuck in a rutt hope is so endless Endless is forever where do you go when dreams are lost just like your inner soul where do you go?

why did you have to go so not fair you left me with out saying goodbye leaven me to deal with everything on my own your own sister thinks i no good. falling for your son no reason i could explain just knowing there something about him that wants him to be closer. you and your wife made me fill hole but it not good enough when me and her driffted apart. angels cann't pretected me from being hurt from life. then loosing my dad even made it harder. then my best friend. where do i turn where do i go but to your grave site praying that your touch those souls that needs to be touch..; I love you and always have from the day you stood in my live room telling me I was your daughter. You too made me feel so special.

Why did you leave me? In a world so crue and full of hurt? I neve3r though I would loss you but one day you gave in. and you left me all alone Daddy, I scared and so alone. I tring my hardest but it not good enough I fail at everything I do. How can a army man have such a week daughter. the tears should not fall from these hazzel eyes. for I am a daughter of a soldier. Dad, You said you would never drink if it was not for World War II but your daughter is so week that she drinks just to escatpe the pain and hurt she feels in her heart. Daddy, If you can hear you daughter cry. please come and bring me home to you. I don't want to travel this world anymore. I dont want the tears to fall I want you to be proud of me but you are an army soldier and I am nobody. that the reason you cannt hear my cry from heaven gates.

As the though of loosing you come to mind I wonder what I could do To keep you Shut up and don’t say anything But that, would not work Because I would not be honest with you Count all the stars in the sky Their so many I could not count them all To climb a volcano to prove to you I would do anything Be my luck I would fall in To stuff what I feel inside and say your right I cann’t do that neither Because the angry would just build To be able to keep you I would say I love you I have nothing to give to you but myself That I would go anywhere with you To keep you I got to trust you that you will stay To be able to keep you You have to be willing to keep me April 2006

Sitting here on my love seat by myself Remember parts of my life that I wish I could change The one I loved with is lying in bed. I pushed him away because Of the secret I have I seem to push everyone away I walk away knowing it killing me inside But I, know I have to I already cause enough pain to him that I could not bare hurting them no more For years, I found myself with friends that I walk out on them I can pick up the phone and they, are their for me I’m walking away to keep from hurting him He can’t handly my action to my secret I don’t blame him I slowly learning Yea I getting better With medicine and counseling but I, about ready to walk away because I making the same mistake just getting a litter smart Walking away will be the hardest thing for me but I, know it not right In time I get over it or start it all over again Walking away is the only thing I know and I, yet found someone to say “Hay, I care and I don’t want you walking away.” August 2005

It that time of the day time to lock up and close the home down. as the kids are tucked into bed time for me to turn in as always this is the time of the day I miss you even more. All I got left are the memories that we shared. you hold me in your arms making love to me away that no man could ever as my eyes get tried I start to fight because I not ready to sleep all I got left is to worry are you safe are they treat you good. who do I say good night to when I used to say it to you All I got left are pictures hang right beside my bed looking down on me. All I got left is to say good night and I, love you and started dreaming of the day you come home but until that day comes all I got left are the phone calls and letters and visited and all I got left is my love for you April 17, 2005

Time is growing short it wont be long until you will arrived. So many are happy that you are coming to be with me. Through the pain and surffering I go through will be worth it all When your in my arms I be hold a micearlal from God own hands. Challages lye ahead each one, every second of your life is a lesson to be learned. this world you are come forth into is cold and curl But baby girl I will be here to help you along the way When the world is on your shoulders I will be there to give you the strenght. Baby girl we will have our disagreements but baby girl I will always love you for I see apart of me in you and you, are my baby girl sent from God own hands December 17, 2006