*Grrr!* It fuckin sucks 2have feelings 4someone u can never have a relationship with. For one example, There's W... He's a work crush. Simple infatuation.. He's hot. He Funny. He looks edible when he's perched atop his Yamaha motorcyle in his matchin leather jacket, with helmet in hand...And... He's got a girlfriend :/ Tho disappointed, I am far from shattered.
But then there's C.. A chat friend Iv known 4a few yrs now. If I hadn't just gotten involved with another guy @ the same time C and I 1st met, I have 2wonder if/how my relationship with C woulda evolved.
C is good looking and funny and sexy.. And, God help me, I just M E L T when he sings 2me. He has been such a good friend 2me n I do love him dearly.. But deep inside I kinda ache 4him. I know he loves me2, as 1 of his best friends but its obvious that whatever feelings he may have had beyond friendship back then, r now gone. N I can live with that.. It just SUCKS.
We used 2talk on the fone all the time n since he's moved across the country and started a brand new life, I hardly hear from him anymore :( I know he's busy but... Ya know? I worry about him. I miss him *eyes well with tears* Oh God, what's wrong with me?!?!
I just talked with him.. Kinda. Voice msgs on UPOC. When I heard his voice, my heart didn't know whether 2leap or sink. He says he'll call sometime late 2nite.. I know better than 2hold my breath but it sure would be nice. Then again, I don't care if he calls me 2nite or not really.. As long as he calls 2sing Happy Birthday on May 4th *cheesy grin*
Anyway, it almost 6:30am and I really should end this b4 I rattle on and on 4ever about this.. Believe, when it come 2the topic of C, I really COULD go on 4ever *LoL*
