I know what ur gonna say.. It's my fault...
....But he's my friend and I trusted him.
Saturday, chillin, havin a great time with my friends, K came to me and asked if he could borrow $20. I luv K 2death, I had no qualms bout lending him the dough. I'd been drinkin, tho, and didn't have cash on me so I gave him my check card. He returned and thanked me. I thought nothing more of it... til now.
I went online 2c if my paycheck had been direct deposited yet. Not yet. But I noticed Saturday's ATM transaction for $60. I tripped. Called K and he had the nerve to seem confused about the whole situation. I hung up on him, I was so pissed off... so HURT.
He finally texted me that he's "sorry" (Iv got my fone forwarded to my voice mail cuz I DON'T wanna hear his voice) I replied: Are u sorry u took it or just sorry I noticed??
K returned with: I'm not like that.. Sorry I took it
I couldn't help myself: if u weren't "like that", u wouldn't have taken it in the 1st place
To which, K replied: I'M SORRY I shoulda asked
I ended the text conversation when I said: Not asking 1st is bad enuff, but u didn't even find it worthy of mentioning AT ALL!!! And that's what makes u REALLY FUCKED UP!
I think he may have sent 1 more apology after that but I have nothing left to say to him. It's not easy for me to trust ppl and shit like this is the reason why. I give and give and get dragged an extra mile or 2 to suit others. It's heart-breaking :( And its not just in the monitary sense. My heart and soul have been stretched, stomped and shattered so badly over the yrs, I'm surprised I have any love or compassion left in me....
Anyway, I'm gonna end this here.. I'm at work and I really need to get my mind back on my job. I just needed to blow off a little of this steam.
