the way you left is so unfair
i close my eyes and youre not there
you missed the birth of your first grand son
you missed the moments you could have had
the anger i had for the way you went
the pain i feel at the guilt you sent
has now died down and calmed inside
but now from tears i fight to hide
the guilt i feel is not for what you did
the guilt i feel is not for what you hid
the pain i feel is for missing you so
the pain i feel youll never know
i want my dad i need him now
to get passed this i dont know how
i called your phone to hear your voice
and to remind you that we had no choice
you chose to leave and not fight the fight
were we not worth it to make it right
we stood as a family no matter the issue
we were all here suffering with you
you could have called or asked for me
i would have come where you needed me to be
i would have been angry but loved you still
i could be the one that gave you that will
the will to live the will to be true
if not to yourself but in what you do
now you are gone and i cant even call
i cant say i love you i can't say nothing at all
so now that ive screamed all my anger to the sky
now that i know the reasons you wanted to die
i need you to know you are still my dad
and the times we grew up for that iam glad
the bad that you did is horrible too
but you were always my dad between me and you
i hate what you became but not what you were
cause to me you were dad of that iam sure
i miss you dad as much as i hate myself for missing you i miss you and i hope you know now how much we all loved you
done by Chrisitne
